I want to thank everyone that left/emailed really nice comments to me. It meant a lot. I miss my grandfather so much. It still doesn’t seem real. I sat at the funeral home with a blank face most of the time. I didn’t cry very much but just sat there. Maybe I would feel better if I did just cry but I can’t. I don’t cry very much. The service was very nice. I think my grandfather would have really liked it. He was buried in a white t-shirt, blue jeans and a ballcap. He looked like papaw but in a way he didn’t. It’s hard to really put it in to words.
My brother didn’t even get out of jail for it. Most of the time they will let you out for 72 hours and then make you go back. He didn’t get to even say goodbye. I think it has been almost 3 years since Raymond had seen papaw. :frown: I hate that for my brother. The last time I seen him was father’s day. I didn’t seem that long ago. I remember kissing him on the cheek and telling him I loved him before Keith and I left. 😐
I need to talk about something happier if not I will be sad forever. We finally got our tax check in. We bought ourselves some clothes that we needed very bad. We paid on some bills and we still have money to move in the next month or so. Keith is finally full-time now and everything seems well. We are doing good besides the funeral. Our lives are starting to fall into place. That makes me smile.
Judy took me to the Heath Department again to change birth control. The pills they put me on made me sick. They said it might of been since I’m so small. So, now I am trying this thing called NuvaRing. It looks really neat. I haven’t tried it out yet because I have to wait the Sunday after my period to use it. It is 99.7% effect with perfect use. The same as the pill. This is pretty good. I think. It looks like a rubber band and you have to keep it in for 3 weeks and then take it out the last week (the week of your period). Then I go back each month and get a new one. I think I will like it. All I can do is try, right?
Well, I am off. I have a lot of house cleaning to do. Being away for 3 days, you can really tell. Nathan and Keith did try. Which I am very greatful for.