Time where did it go

It’s been a while since I last updated. I’ve been wanting to update but who has the time. I mean, I guess I have had the time. Over all I just felt like I haven’t.

My in-laws moved back from Florida this past November and had been staying with us until this past week when they got their own place. It just took them a little longer than they wanted to find the right one. Then like normal I have Meadow every weekend. I keep Zoe (my friend’s little girl, she’s 6 years old) every day, well, I put her on the bus, get her off the bus and do all homework every day. Sometimes, have her more often then that.

Plus, I coupon still. I have also started cleaning Kyle’s grandmother apartment once a month and cleaning for my grandmother about 2 – 3 times monthly and I have to do all grocery shopping for my grandmother since my step-grandfather got sick. It makes it hard to have time management skills, if you don’t have time to manage. I also still have to keep up with our normal house stuff and animals and what not. It makes normal living hard when you have so many people pulling on you each way.

We are still trying to have a baby, which we know we still have to do IVF. We hope to start that this spring. Money is always playing the biggest part in that. We have been working on paying off credit debit and improving credit scores and what not. Plus, trying to improve our home a little at a time. Which isn’t easy nor cheap. It all takes time. . .which feels like we don’t have.

I turn 30 this year and I feel like the clock is just ticking away. I feel the clock just ticking louder and louder. Which I hate. The joys of beating teen pregnancy, and 20 something pregnancy. I just don’t know if I can handle turning 30 and being childless. We are suppose to have our family now. We did everything right. We work, we pay bills, we got the house, we got married. We have the “american” dream. Why can’t we have this? Why does my bank account decide if we can try to have kids?

It feels like every meth-head around me is having baby after baby. Every unemployed mother/father living off the government can have a baby but because we do the right thing and my body, my husband’s body (we are the 20% that infertility effects both people) can’t do the one thing it is suppose to do we can’t get help. How is that fair? The government will pay for WIC, food stamps and medical care for all these people, but won’t help me become pregnant. Or help pay half the bill, anything at this point would help. It just doesn’t seem fair. Maybe if I had been irresponsible as a teen or as a young adult it would be different, I could have 2 or 3 kids with as many baby-daddies and let them pay the bill. But at last, I did the right thing, waited till I was married, ready to have kids. And then, I feel like it’s now almost to late. Which I know is silly, women now have kids almost to 40. Just feels silly sometimes. Hurtful somehow.

Doing the adult thing

I am glad we did our taxes and didn’t have to pay in. We already got our state back, all $45. Now we are waiting on our Federal which should be here Wednesday. We are getting enough back we can pay off at least our lawn mower we were leasing, a couple credit cards and new glasses. It won’t leave any really to put back in savings but getting a few things paid off will. Plus, I should be starting my second job very soon. That is where I am putting money back to pay things off. That second income will go right into savings and only touched to pay off the credit cards. We only have around $5,000 in debit but I want it gone.

I also want to start saving for our IVF and pay off some all bills on my credit report to bring it up. I want those things gone so we can move forward with getting small loans to upgrade things around our house. I want new hard wood floors and new carpet in the house. If I keep my second job, we most likely won’t have to get loans we may just pay up front if we can every get everything going to plan.

The joys of being an adult. I don’t remember anyone ever telling me that this would be fun and I have no clue why I thought being an adult would be. lol.

How-to: laundry detergent

I hate buying laundry detergent. I feel like it is a waste of money and I wash so many clothes a bottle of detergent doesn’t last very long for the price it cost. I went online to find out how to make my own and I found so many different “recipes” I couldn’t hardly wait to start. I found one “recipe” I liked and edited it to my liking. I went to my local Wal-Mart and was able to find everything I needed for such a super cheap price.

This makes 1/2 gallon. I doubled it and made 1 gallon due the fact the jar I bought was a 1 gallon jar. Glass jar was $4.97 and the coffee scoop was $1.64 (1 tablespoon).

What you need:

  • 2 cups of 20 Mule team Borax ($3.38 – 4lb box)
  • 2 cups of Arm & Hammer Washing Soda ($3.24 – 3lb box)
  • 1 cup of baking soda ($0.50 – 14oz box)
  • 1 bar of Fels-Naptha Soap ($0.97 – per bar)
  • 1 cup of Oxi-Clean ($3.86 – 1.3lb tub)
  • 1 cup of Purex Crystals ($4.85 – 28ox bottle)


  • 1 large bowl
  • Cheese grater
  • Measuring cups


  1. Grate your bar of soap. I used the fine side of the grater. It seems to mix better into the powder.
  2. Mix all powder ingredients together.
  3. Add grated soap into powder ingredients.
  4. Mix all together.
  5. Done!

Side note: I have a front loading washer and I add it right in the drum. I use two scoops. It seems to make my clothes smell amazing and gets them just as clean or more as store bought. If you are wondering about the smell it smells like lavender and just clean. . .due to the Purex is lavender scented.

Cost of just ingredients total: $16.90 And I still have a lot of extra borax and washing soda for my next use. Which I found pretty awesome!