Keith and I had another big fight today. That’s right another. Most people think we are this happy couple that get along great. We don’t. We are always fighting about something. We work together so that makes it even worse. We never had anytime to ourselves. We ALWAYS have someone over or have something to do. Which makes it impossible to really get anything done or to really spend time with each other. The time we really need.

I love my husband more than anything in this world. I truly believe that I would go crazy without yet both of us are miserable most of the time. I don’t know what to do anymore. We have been fighting like this for the past year. It just seems to get worse. Keith has a very bad temper. He has always had it but never showed it to me until these last few months. He scares me so bad. I’m not sure what he will do. I mean I know he would never hit me or anything but far as yelling at me and stuff like that. He does it all the time over silly things that really don’t matter to either of us. Things in 20 minutes let alone the rest of our lives that just don’t matter. I don’t get that. Why we fight over silly things. I know they are silly yet I hate being talked to like that.

I feel like cry just about all the time or if not crying trying to find outlets. I’m always work. I’m always stressed and never sleep. I feel sick all the time and yet I push on. I have to push on because I know if I don’t know one else will.

Keith and I fight over house stuff a lot or what he wants to buy. He wants to buy guns. I want to save up for a house/land. I want him to help with the house work. He WON’T. I work 35+ hours a week and then come home and clean for another 1+ hours a night. Plus I have to do web design work just about every night; that’s another 2+ hours, just right there. He works 25+ hours a week and comes home to watch TV/play on his computer. I have to beg him to help me and when he finally does it takes him around a week to do anything.

I just don’t understand. I work so hard for us to have a life together and I know he does too and here we are throwing it all away over silly things. Crazy. How dumb can we be?