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School, Christina & Doctor appointments

I am busy finishing up my last semester of school. Just two classes and I am done for now. I am so sick and tired of school. I feel like I have been doing it for way to long.

Christina came and visited from June 8th until June 15th. We had so much fun I just wish it was longer. Each visit she stays or I visit her it never is enough time. I just want her near. :/ I might end up writing an entry just about her visit, but today isn’t that day. lol.

In November of last year I had laparoscopic surgery on endometriosis and scar tissue. The doctors at that time thought this might be the reason why I hadn’t gotten pregnant at that point; which in November we had been trying a year and eight months. The doctor said he had great faith that he removed most of the endometriosis and thought my chances of getting pregnant would be higher. If I wasn’t pregnant within six months to come back. Well, May of this year was six months from my surgery and here I am still NOT pregnant. I called the office and I have to have some more test run. I have to have what is called a HSG (hysterosalpingogram). For people that don’t know:

A hysterosalpingogram (HSG) is an X-ray test that looks at the inside of the uterus and fallopian tubes and the area around them. It often is done for women who are having a hard time becoming pregnant (infertile).

I am been super scared up until this point because if I don’t know, then there is still a chance of me getting pregnant in the back of my mind. If I do this test and they find something that could be it. Kyle and I are done. I’m just scared of knowing. Sometimes faith and hope is all someone has.

Happy June everyone!

Happy June everyone! I can’t believe it is already June. . .I doesn’t seem like time should be going this fast.

I’m waiting on mine and Kyle’s paychecks to hit the bank so I can pay all of our bills due. Then I was planing on going to bed but I’m not sure yet. I’m wrapping up my 4 days off and not sure how I want to end my days off.

I did just finish all my core classes for my degree and learned some really neat PDO stuff for PHP but I don’t know how I want to use it. I did also find the book Learning PHP Data Objects A Beginner’s Guide to PHP Data Objects, Database Connection Abstraction Library for PHP 5. I started reading over it. I know some of the information it is teaching but I thought either way it would be a good read.

Well, time to check the bank accounts again.

Far behind

Another school semester is coming to a start and I am not looking forward to it at all. I just want to be done already. Thank the gods, I didn’t go to a college for a 4 year degree, I would be really angry right now. ;-( I love the idea of school but I turned 26 in November and I feel like I should be already passed this part of my life. I should be working on my career already, not dealing with school. I feel like I am behind because I waited to go to college. Which makes in reality my age, most everyone is done with college and going out but I decided to be a late bloomer. Normal. This has always been my case. I just wanted to live, not worry about all the bullshit, but “wanting to just live” does not pay bills as much as I would like for it too. And I’m tired of not having a career.

I want that, I want to be on a 9 – 5 life. But as of right now, I am on a second shift job, school during the day and no time for anything. See where I am going with this. Ahhh! I just want to scream.

I feel so far behind. . .