Well, I’m finally divorced. It was final today. I remember after I signed all the paper work I was so happy. Now, I’m not sure what I feel. I know that I still don’t want to be with him but I also know that I still care about him very much. I wish him nothing but happiness for him.
I have so much still going on in my life. I still don’t have a job. I will be watching my nieces this week to make a little money. Then I’m not totally sure if I’m still moving or not. I think I might be moving in to BG. I just don’t know what to do.
I not sure what I need to do. If I move to BG my parents are going to kill me. I don’t need them to approve of my life, but I do like the idea of them being a part of it. I don’t really care if they like what I’m doing or not. My mom just keeps telling me that I need to just worry about what’s going on with me. And what is going to make me happy. Well, Cj does make me happy. He makes me feel so good again. It’s nice having that. :heart:
I want him in my life. I want him with me. I don’t think I could keep living here in Glasgow if he wasn’t here. It was going to make it really hard on us as a couple if we didn’t figure something out. I’m not totally sure if this is the best idea but I know I don’t want him dropping out of school or anything. I want him to follow his dreams.
Some many questions and not enough answers. Like always.
Congratulations on your divorce!
And we’re saying it like it’s a good thing because in the end it really is =)