I can’t say I’m happy with everything but you know what? I am happy with where I’m at. I don’t like somethings. I’m changing those things.
Somethings don’t change ever. I’m okay with that. I don’t need anyone but I still like the thought of having or someone needing me. I like the thought of not placing labels. I love that idea. Labels make things much harder.
I will enjoy my label-free night. Night.
Sometimes I feel I live a double life. One side gets one part of me and the other half of my life gets that part. Very sad. I really wish it was more simple but nothing is simple. And if it is something most likely is wrong. Very sad.
Btw, I am updating this from my new G1. Very nice. It was my 23rd birthday gift to myself. Great isn’t it. My life is so sad.
PS: I <3 my phone!
Lyrics normally tell how I feel. I don’t think I feel like this for all the lyrics but some of it. Yes. lol :/
[Verse]
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed[Vamp1]
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong[Male]
You know when you act like that
I don’t think you realize how it makes me look
or feel[Beyonce]
Act like what
Why are you so jealous
It’s not like I’m sleeping with the guy[Male]
What[Beyonce]
What[Male]
I said yo
Why are you so jealous
It ain’t like I’m sleepin’ with the girl[Vamp2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy
I’m off for bit. Work then time with to hang out with Candi. 🙂
10 days to my birthday. What I thought I wanted. I do not. What I do want is something silly and the person I wanted to be spending it with. Most likely won’t happen. I might try to hang out with someone on my birthday. No reason to be alone. I’m already working that day.
I’m so super broke. I don’t even have money to get myself the stuff to make my cake. I don’t have the money to do anything.
That Friday the 14th I get paid. I am totally doing something stupid like myself a new phone. I don’t care. I never do anything for myself. 99% I work and pay bills. Never spend money on anything but bills, food and gas. So, for once I am going to buy myself something awesome. It will be my birthday and Yale gift all in one. It shall be, the G1. The awesome new phone from T-mobile.
Nothing else to really report. I’m going crazy but nothing new there. lol I guess I’m off to search the random web for well. . .random things. lol