“Take my advice, or I’ll spank you a lot.” — English subtitle used in a Hong Kong film
Today was a snow day from school. I was glad. I got a lot done. I moved some of my stuff back to mom’s house. I swear Chris and I have the worse luck. But everything will be okay. I swear it will be. I have hope and that’s all I need…wait, that’s all we need.
I put up a new layout. You like?
Don’t ask about my mood? I am going to write more about that tonight.
I’m off for right now…..later.
Before anyone reads; TMI:
I have such allergic reactions to just about every type of birth control. I can’t use latex condoms. I can’t use the patch, the sticky on them break me out. I can’t use most pills to strong and I get sick. I was on the Nuva Ring but they think where I have been on it for over two years that it might be giving me high blood pressure and all my headaches.
They are trying me out on this new pill called the mini-pill or P.O.P. Not sure. And if it works for three months then they are going to try the IUD. Which sounds good but what if I want children before the 5 years are up or something like that. Can I change it or what I don’t like it? Am I allowed to change? I have so many questions.
I know some facts. I don’t need children right now. I want something I don’t have to take everyday and something that I’m not going to worry about or having stomach aches with or headaches with or something like that. I’m worried that I’m going to bleed really bad. I have always had problems with my periods.
Just in the last few months has my periods finally went from 5 days a month to 3. I was in love but I have headaches about 4-5 days a week. Which I hated. But what do you do? Hope for the best. . .I guess. I’m trying to look at everything.
I don’t feel good. I’ve changed birth control and I can really feel it. I haven’t ever had good luck with them. :yuck: I think I’m heading to bed with out updating anything. I’m so sick.
I swear it is! I might just blow up myself. Maybe not, but maybe I will. Sometimes I’m in such a great mood. I believe nothing could bring me down. I could be happy. But other days, I truly believe it won’t get better. Nothing will. I have so much envy and jealousy for people. Even people that I don’t even know. Just random blogs I read. It seems everyone has a better life then me. I seem to suck at life. I don’t understand.
I’m sick and tired of people that just wait it out and everything works out. They don’t have to work for anything. It pisses me the right the fuck off! :yuck: I mean, like my brother. It makes me so angry. He doesn’t work, he doesn’t worry about anything and everything works out for him some how. In the end, everything always works out.
I work all the damn time and I never get anything great in return. I don’t understand why people that work hard can’t get something great in return.
I want everything for once to just come together without fighting for it!! Damn it!!! I’m tired of it always being a daily battle for everything in my life. Don’t get me wrong it’s not that I want everything handed to me. I just want it to be a little more simple. I don’t mind working for the things in my life. That isn’t the problem.
Life will be okay. Simply put. Everything will be okay. I can’t look on the down side. I’m loved. I’m in a pretty good mood right now and I have everything I could ask for in this moment. Okay. . .nothing is as bad as it seems.
Plus Cj said I could get a kitty. Yayness! Things might be looking up.
I’m off to cook a meal, clean a little before work. Later.