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Hate Me

I am lost for words.

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
Hate Me –Blue October

I will always let lyrics talk for me.

Friday5

  • What is one thing about you that you hate? Nothing.
  • What is one thing about you that you love? Everything.
  • If you had to change one thing about you what would it be and why? I wouldn’t change anything. Why would you? You are who you are for a reason.
  • What is one word that you would use to define yourself? Colorful.
  • Imagine what you would look like in a perfect world…what do you look like? Like me!
  • Thanks: Friday5

Like the seasons, love changes

I feel like I lost everything. . .again. . .to really find myself. . .I will be okay. I always am. I will be great. I will always love him, but like the seasons, love changes. You know what they say, Everything will be okay in the end, if it is not okay, then it is not the end!

The Fray – Over My Head (Cable Car)
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that’s how it’s got to be
It’s coming down to nothing more than apathy
I’d rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who’s still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Let’s rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that’s disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I’m becoming the part that don’t last
I’m losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won’t let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Everyone knows
She’s on your mind
Everyone knows I’m in over my head
I’m in over my head
I’m in over…

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Which would you pick

If you had a choice, happiness or money, which would YOU choose?

I asked this same question on Twitter not to long ago. One person replied with Happiness. I keep telling myself that money doesn’t buy happiness, it buys comfort. Money makes life easier, with money you can buy anything. Friends, cars, houses, pets, anything and everything. But in the end, you still can’t buy love.

I would pick happiness. I would rather have no money and be happy and than have all the money in the world. To me, you can’t buy the things you need most in life.

So, in the end, which would you pick Money or Happiness?

Ages ago

I should have been in bed ages ago. I’m very tired but can’t sleep. Like always.

Let’s see what the hell that has been going on. Umm. . .

  • Start a new job next week.
  • Last day at Arby’s is Sunday.
  • Still unpacking stuff from the move.
  • Cj and I are getting along very well at the moment.
  • I did like this layout for about 10 seconds but now I want something new.
  • Been on the computer updating stuff all night. (Got my links updated and my page redone)
  • Have a few ideas for a layout. Can’t seem to put them down yet.
  • I have to be up in a few hours. :yuck:

I think that about sums it up. Great, huh?  Maybe time for bed, maybe not. Not sure yet. If I stay up I can see the pretty snow we got. Very lovely to look at but not so good to drive in. Thank goodness Cj come and got me last night. Well, CJ and Dustan. Same differences, right? 😆