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Good things come to those who wait

I’m in a very good mood spite the fact I’m up at almost 8am and I have to be at work at 4 today. I was suppose to open but something (very good) 🙂 took place this morning and now I have to close. This is very good. Even great. I believe my work life is going to get a lot better. I know it will.

It feels like ages since I last updated. I missed blogging. I was suppose to meet with Chet tomorrow about his web site after work but now I have to be at work at night now. I think he will understand. He’s great like that.

I feel bad, Keith had to go in this morning but Anita (our GM) promised him that he would be off by 1pm so he could watch his Cub game. I really hope he gets too because I know how much he wanted to see it.

I believe I’m off for a while. I think I’m going to maybe eat me a little something and then try to go back to sleep for a while.

Enough to re-populate Africa

I should be in bed by now but yet again I can’t sleep. I guess I’m great like that. I will pay for it later. I know Keith is sleepy but I wanted to eat first before we went to bed. I’m not sure I can even sleep. I hate that. I know I should yet can’t. :snide:

Nothing much has been going on. Same old same old. I cleaned house today and did a little of this and that but all in all I have been very lazy. Keith and I went shopping after he got off work and bought almost all food. I :heart: Wal-Mart. Keith did buy me this really cute hippo that giggles. He always knows how to get to me. One more hippo to the million I already have. Keith says I have enough to re-populate Africa. 😀 Maybe if I’m lucky. I have hippos every where in my apartment. I guess I’m great like that.

Once an again

I do believe everything is going to be all right. I’m off today, Monday and I only have to go in for a meeting on Tuesday for an hour. I’m really off for three days. This is great.

I’m so happy about moving up. I only have to work 4 days a week (10 hour shifts) and I get three days to do whatever. I know 10 hours sounds like a lot but not really. I’m use to working 8.5 hours a night anyway. What’s another two?

I do believe I’m going to try to go get in the tub and wash off before heading off to bed. I’m very tired and but Wednesday morning I need to be sleeping nights. I have to be at work at 7am. I’m sure it will be okay. I can sleep just about anytime of day or night as long as I have Keith’s smell around. God, I love that man. :heart:

I plan on working on the site tonight later. But first Keith and I are going to have some us time. I plan on cooking and then we are going to watch a movie. Date night!

Maybe I am

Maybe I am doing something right. Finally it seems Keith and I have reached a standing point, a meeting ground. I hope so. We sat on the bad thoughts (leaving each other) and we sat on the good ones :love: for a few days before talking about it. I really think we have worked something out. I truly hope so. It feels like it has.

I can see it in his eyes that he truly wants us to be okay and be happy together. I can see he really is going to try this time. It makes me smile. 🙂 I know how much I want us to be okay :heart: but it takes two.

Good News: I finally made it to management. I start my training next week. This means better pay. I will make $6.75 not $6. This is going to help Keith and me so much. I’m really going to start saving money. I have too. I’m opening up my own account so I can keep track of my design money and my money I’m not paying on bills. :cheery: I’m proud of myself. It takes really hard work to move up. Most people will never understand how hard fast food is. It’s not easy to smile and hand really rude people their food. Knowing that that person was so rude to your crew.

Where did I go wrong?

Keith and I had another big fight today. That’s right another. Most people think we are this happy couple that get along great. We don’t. We are always fighting about something. We work together so that makes it even worse. We never had anytime to ourselves. We ALWAYS have someone over or have something to do. Which makes it impossible to really get anything done or to really spend time with each other. The time we really need.

I love my husband more than anything in this world. I truly believe that I would go crazy without yet both of us are miserable most of the time. I don’t know what to do anymore. We have been fighting like this for the past year. It just seems to get worse. Keith has a very bad temper. He has always had it but never showed it to me until these last few months. He scares me so bad. I’m not sure what he will do. I mean I know he would never hit me or anything but far as yelling at me and stuff like that. He does it all the time over silly things that really don’t matter to either of us. Things in 20 minutes let alone the rest of our lives that just don’t matter. I don’t get that. Why we fight over silly things. I know they are silly yet I hate being talked to like that.

I feel like cry just about all the time or if not crying trying to find outlets. I’m always work. I’m always stressed and never sleep. I feel sick all the time and yet I push on. I have to push on because I know if I don’t know one else will.

Keith and I fight over house stuff a lot or what he wants to buy. He wants to buy guns. I want to save up for a house/land. I want him to help with the house work. He WON’T. I work 35+ hours a week and then come home and clean for another 1+ hours a night. Plus I have to do web design work just about every night; that’s another 2+ hours, just right there. He works 25+ hours a week and comes home to watch TV/play on his computer. I have to beg him to help me and when he finally does it takes him around a week to do anything.

I just don’t understand. I work so hard for us to have a life together and I know he does too and here we are throwing it all away over silly things. Crazy. How dumb can we be?