Thank you everyone for your sweet and caring comments. I still feel very different inside and out. I look at how my body was changing and how it went back to normal and think “WOW! I had something living inside of me. I had a living being growing inside of me.” I feel just blessed knowing that I can get pregnant, that I had that moment of happiness growing inside. I know that sounds odd to say after what happen but I have to think on the bright side, right?

Early Friday morning around 4 am or so before Keith and I went to bed. I just cried. I cried for a long time. I had to get it out. I felt a little better after I got it out not back to normal but a little better.

I put the baby blanket away. I can’t stand even looking at it, let alone working on it. I told Keith when I get pregnant again I would finish it then but not now. It’s way to soon. I almost come to tears when ever I look at baby stuff or past by a little baby. I know I should get over this but I can’t yet. It is going to take time and I know that, Keith knows that. It’s just so hard. 😥

WOW! It is getting late. I made Caroline’s birthday cake earlier today. She wanted a purple cake with blue icing on it for her 7th birthday. So, I made it for her. She turned 7 on the 16th of this month. Mom just decided to have her party tomorrow today. Easier to have it on Sunday then a week night, you know?

Well, I think I am going to head off to bed. I am getting tired :yawn: and I have to get to mom’s house early to help set stuff up for the party.