Thank you

March 20

Thank you everyone for your sweet and caring comments. I still feel very different inside and out. I look at how my body was changing and how it went back to normal and think “WOW! I had something living inside of me. I had a living being growing inside of me.” I feel just blessed knowing that I can get pregnant, that I had that moment of happiness growing inside. I know that sounds odd to say after what happen but I have to think on the bright side, right?

Early Friday morning around 4 am or so before Keith and I went to bed. I just cried. I cried for a long time. I had to get it out. I felt a little better after I got it out not back to normal but a little better.

I put the baby blanket away. I can’t stand even looking at it, let alone working on it. I told Keith when I get pregnant again I would finish it then but not now. It’s way to soon. I almost come to tears when ever I look at baby stuff or past by a little baby. I know I should get over this but I can’t yet. It is going to take time and I know that, Keith knows that. It’s just so hard. πŸ˜₯

WOW! It is getting late. I made Caroline’s birthday cake earlier today. She wanted a purple cake with blue icing on it for her 7th birthday. So, I made it for her. She turned 7 on the 16th of this month. Mom just decided to have her party tomorrow today. Easier to have it on Sunday then a week night, you know?

Well, I think I am going to head off to bed. I am getting tired :yawn: and I have to get to mom’s house early to help set stuff up for the party.

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  1. Denise – Mar 20, 2005 at 10:05

    aw, that’s terribly sad πŸ˜₯ My mother had two miscarriages before she had me, so I guess when the time is right and your body is ready it will happen.

    that’s quite the cake, purple with blue icing, hope everyone has fun at the party! πŸ™‚

  2. Bella – Mar 20, 2005 at 11:36

    Sounds like a cool party, I love your Harry Potter quote hehe classic!

  3. Sara – Mar 21, 2005 at 11:34

    I’m sorry about your miscarriage Rainbow πŸ™ I would be depressed πŸ™
    But hey! cheer up coz you still can get pregnant πŸ˜‰ good luckz!

  4. Valerie – Mar 21, 2005 at 14:12

    Crying is good medicine, you’ll probably be doing it a lot, but it’s natural πŸ˜‰ Glad to see you’re looking towards the future and being positive about WHEN (not if, but when)you’re pregnant

  5. Jo – Mar 21, 2005 at 17:41

    I love the new skin πŸ™‚

    It’s ok to cry. You’ll have another chance, and I’m sure that one day you’ll make an amazing mommy!!!

    Hope the b-day party was fun :sun:

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