I have a bad feeling about this

April 28

I decided for one reason or another to open Yahoo message a few moments ago and I guess the reason I did was because I was hoping Christina would be on it so I could talk to her but still the same I open it up and find that a user by the name nascarred08 has added me to their buddy list. Ummm . . . not many people have my yahoo messenger name and most people know to use my AIM name because I am most likely to be on there but this isn’t the point. My point is being that the only person I know that uses the words nascar, red, the number 8 and so on are Ronda and Tony (Chris’s mom and step-dad). I really don’t want to start anything with either one of them. I have left her, Tony and Chris alone. I have only talk to Chris once since the shit :poo: hit the fan and I am not about to start more. I want everything to end with her and Tony. I want the past to be the past. πŸ™

I hate the fact that I still have nightmares about Tony. The fact that I wake up almost screaming, in tears and holding on to Keith for dear life. I HATE THAT!! It isn’t fair to me to be scared of a man that I no long have to be around. I just hate even thinking about it.

I better get off that subject before I start to cry and I don’t want to do that. 😐 But anyway, I am just sitting here. I have a few projects to work on. I need to finish working on Chet’s side project on his site, I need to finish editing a few pages for Christina and I have to add an archives page to WP and finish making Jim (our tattoo guy) some business cards. I made me some today for Element Solutions. They look very nice. I was very proud of myself. *shows off big ego* :cute: Oh, yeah another thing I need to add to WP is the spell checker. I suck at spelling which most people that read my blog have noticed. LOL I can’t help it. 😳 I have always sucked at it.

Before I forget, thank you Amanda for willing to help me. I might be emailing you in a few days once I get my book in and start reading it. I would love to work with you. You are the PHP Queen. πŸ˜€ You rock my socks anyway. *hugs*

I guess I better go. I have a lot to do before bed. And Keith and I have a lot to do tomorrow. Go to H and R Block to get our taxes fixed, pick up his check, put it in the bank, go pay house phone bill and the electric bill and then after all that we have to go to Wal-Mart to get food and light bulbs. πŸ’‘ We have a very busy day a head of us and I don’t even fill like getting out :yuck: because it’s all rainy and stuff. Damn weather.

PS: Before I totally forget thank you for all the nice comments on my tattoo. I’m glad everyone likes it. πŸ˜€

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  1. Christina – Apr 29, 2005 at 11:44

    But I love you! :sun:

  2. Sammii – Apr 29, 2005 at 12:32

    Wow, you have a busy day ahead of you. I’m too lazy to do all that πŸ˜›

  3. Amanda – Apr 29, 2005 at 15:51

    πŸ˜€ I’m glad I rock your socks! That made my day πŸ™‚ I’m sorry to hear about this person adding you to their list. At least you can deny it if you want. If worse comes to worse, you can block them if they message you. You’re right, you shouldn’t have to be afraid of someone that you no longer have to be around. Of course, you can always turn to the people who love you for assistance if you find yourself thinking about it too much. πŸ™ Who knew that two people needed to go shopping for the same thing – lightbulbs? Both mine went out a few days ago so I’ve been sitting in the dark with only a desklamp, but I don’t like that because it casts a shadow onto my curtain that people can see.

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