Babbling on again it seems

I haven’t been doing much. I have felt really bad all day. I am trying to think positive. . .or at least keep a positive out look. I am so tired of work and I’m so tired with everything. I really want everything to be like it was in May. . .it seemed simple then. I didn’t have anything but work, Cookie and life to look forward too.

It’s not that I don’t want the things I have now in my life like CJ and all but I stay so stressed out all the time. I’m not even sure on what. I like to think it’s work. I stress out about everything. Even the little things that won’t matter in a few hours, let alone in a few years. I have a bad habit of taking that out on CJ. I hate that. I get stressed and I don’t know how to handle myself and I snap at him for no reason or what I would find funny normally I would just cry over. I know he doesn’t know how to handle me, hell, I don’t know how to handle me. I truly don’t want to lose him over something silly, I don’t want to lose him at all. I don’t think I will but I do get scared at times.

I’m scared. . .very simply put. I wish I was the big girl I use to be but he makes me weak. I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing. I like to think both at times. I wish I knew where I was going with this whole blog entry but I have no clue. Just another babbling entry, I guess.

On to randomness. . .

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Scrabble :: Spelling
  2. NyQuil :: Sleepy Time
  3. Roadtrip :: Because it’s your dog.
  4. Idiot :: Work
  5. Bandages :: Dr. office
  6. Series :: Shows
  7. Summer :: Break
  8. Prompt :: Action
  9. September :: Birthdays
  10. Chicken :: Me
  11. Thanks to: Unconscious Mutterings

Friday Five:

  • What’s something you suspect you regularly overpay for? Gas!
  • What’s something you suspect you regularly underpay for? Food.
  • What’s taking up more of your time than it should? Work and house work.
  • What’s causing you stress only because you let it? Work. I am really bad about stressing.
  • If all your karma were based on your positive and negative attitudes, would it be in good shape, in bad shape, or perfectly in balance? I would like to think balance but I’m not totally sure. Most likely in the middle. lol
  • Thanks to: Friday5.Org

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Babbling on again it seems

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I haven’t been doing much. I have felt really bad all day. I am trying to think positive. . .or at least keep a positive out look. I am so tired of work and I’m so tired with everything. I really want everything to be like it was in May. . .it seemed simple then. I didn’t have anything but work, Cookie and life to look forward too.

It’s not that I don’t want the things I have now in my life like CJ and all but I stay so stressed out all the time. I’m not even sure on what. I like to think it’s work. I stress out about everything. Even the little things that won’t matter in a few hours, let alone in a few years. I have a bad habit of taking that out on CJ. I hate that. I get stressed and I don’t know how to handle myself and I snap at him for no reason or what I would find funny normally I would just cry over. I know he doesn’t know how to handle me, hell, I don’t know how to handle me. I truly don’t want to lose him over something silly, I don’t want to lose him at all. I don’t think I will but I do get scared at times.

I’m scared. . .very simply put. I wish I was the big girl I use to be but he makes me weak. I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing. I like to think both at times. I wish I knew where I was going with this whole blog entry but I have no clue. Just another babbling entry, I guess.

On to randomness. . .

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Scrabble :: Spelling
  2. NyQuil :: Sleepy Time
  3. Roadtrip :: Because it’s your dog.
  4. Idiot :: Work
  5. Bandages :: Dr. office
  6. Series :: Shows
  7. Summer :: Break
  8. Prompt :: Action
  9. September :: Birthdays
  10. Chicken :: Me
  11. Thanks to: Unconscious Mutterings

Friday Five:

  • What’s something you suspect you regularly overpay for? Gas!
  • What’s something you suspect you regularly underpay for? Food.
  • What’s taking up more of your time than it should? Work and house work.
  • What’s causing you stress only because you let it? Work. I am really bad about stressing.
  • If all your karma were based on your positive and negative attitudes, would it be in good shape, in bad shape, or perfectly in balance? I would like to think balance but I’m not totally sure. Most likely in the middle. lol
  • Thanks to: Friday5.Org