A new chapter

I finally have water. I was without for 9 days but living so close to family really helped out. Dad was amazing on helping me get it fixed and running. I had to wait so long not because of my father but because the weather wouldn’t warm up. But it has finally! 😀

Raymond has been gone for a week tomorrow. He hasn’t called or anything. Very odd. You think you would want to know why you are kicked out but he didn’t care. He kept bumming off other people without missing a beat. He is great like that. Don’t get me wrong. I love my brother but I can only take so much. He had been living with me almost a year and still no a temp to find a job. Jobs don’t get up and fall into your lap. Promise. You do have to go looking.. .dang.

Far as that. Thank you all for all the wonderful comments on the past couple of entries. I like to hear from army wives and people that have dealt with long distance relationships before. It helps me feel less alone.

I hate being without Cody by my side. He has been such a big part of my life for so long and to think he is having to deal with something so hard like basic training a lone hurts me, scares me. We always deal with our problems together. Facing them head on. Him having to do this a lone is so depressing. But I know in the back of his mind he is worrying about me right now dealing with all the bills, taking care of the house like pipes freezing and our heater messing up and things like that. I know scares him too. I guess this is just another chapter in our lives that we have to face a lone but together if that makes any sense at all. I know most of these feelings are normal and theses fears are normal. I keep telling myself that.

It’s crazy but I have these little things that make me feel so close to him. Like, I check the weather where he is or every night no matter what I always say “good night, sweet dreams. I love you.” or I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night feeling for him. Or I almost expect him to be at the house waiting for me when I get off work. Which is kind of depressing when he isn’t but I know once these 27 weeks (10 weeks at basic & 17 weeks at AIT) are over we are going to be so close and finally plan our wedding and honeymoon.

WOW, when I read over that and look at 27 weeks. . .I cry a little because that is FOREVER! January has been going by pretty quick. I hope the rest of the months will too.

I need to get off the internet and stop watching TV. I have a love letter to write to my baby. Those brighten our day. I can’t wait till Sunday. I will cross fingers get another phone call. To hear his voice. To hear how much he loves me. . .makes my week.

Jenn

Beautiful, 30 something, geek by choice, happily married for 6+ years, college graduate, perfectly imperfect, blogger, fur mom, music lover! I'm tattooed, pierced & wild at times but I wouldn't trade it for anything. Project 42; the answer to life the universe and everything.

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