Relationship

Babbling on again it seems

I haven’t been doing much. I have felt really bad all day. I am trying to think positive. . .or at least keep a positive out look. I am so tired of work and I’m so tired with everything. I really want everything to be like it was in May. . .it seemed simple then. I didn’t have anything but work, Cookie and life to look forward too.

It’s not that I don’t want the things I have now in my life like CJ and all but I stay so stressed out all the time. I’m not even sure on what. I like to think it’s work. I stress out about everything. Even the little things that won’t matter in a few hours, let alone in a few years. I have a bad habit of taking that out on CJ. I hate that. I get stressed and I don’t know how to handle myself and I snap at him for no reason or what I would find funny normally I would just cry over. I know he doesn’t know how to handle me, hell, I don’t know how to handle me. I truly don’t want to lose him over something silly, I don’t want to lose him at all. I don’t think I will but I do get scared at times.

I’m scared. . .very simply put. I wish I was the big girl I use to be but he makes me weak. I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing. I like to think both at times. I wish I knew where I was going with this whole blog entry but I have no clue. Just another babbling entry, I guess.

On to randomness. . .

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Scrabble :: Spelling
  2. NyQuil :: Sleepy Time
  3. Roadtrip :: Because it’s your dog.
  4. Idiot :: Work
  5. Bandages :: Dr. office
  6. Series :: Shows
  7. Summer :: Break
  8. Prompt :: Action
  9. September :: Birthdays
  10. Chicken :: Me
  11. Thanks to: Unconscious Mutterings

Friday Five:

  • What’s something you suspect you regularly overpay for? Gas!
  • What’s something you suspect you regularly underpay for? Food.
  • What’s taking up more of your time than it should? Work and house work.
  • What’s causing you stress only because you let it? Work. I am really bad about stressing.
  • If all your karma were based on your positive and negative attitudes, would it be in good shape, in bad shape, or perfectly in balance? I would like to think balance but I’m not totally sure. Most likely in the middle. lol
  • Thanks to: Friday5.Org

D-Day

Well, I’m finally divorced. It was final today. I remember after I signed all the paper work I was so happy. Now, I’m not sure what I feel. I know that I still don’t want to be with him but I also know that I still care about him very much. I wish him nothing but happiness for him.

I have so much still going on in my life. I still don’t have a job. I will be watching my nieces this week to make a little money. Then I’m not totally sure if I’m still moving or not. I think I might be moving in to BG. I just don’t know what to do.

I not sure what I need to do. If I move to BG my parents are going to kill me. I don’t need them to approve of my life, but I do like the idea of them being a part of it. I don’t really care if they like what I’m doing or not. My mom just keeps telling me that I need to just worry about what’s going on with me. And what is going to make me happy. Well, Cj does make me happy. He makes me feel so good again. It’s nice having that. :heart:

I want him in my life. I want him with me. I don’t think I could keep living here in Glasgow if he wasn’t here. It was going to make it really hard on us as a couple if we didn’t figure something out. I’m not totally sure if this is the best idea but I know I don’t want him dropping out of school or anything. I want him to follow his dreams.

Some many questions and not enough answers. Like always.

I’m a big kid now

I have been busy with Crazy Talk for the last few hours. I put up this new layout. So, pretty! This one will be staying up for a while. I love everything about it. It just seems to fit me right now. :woot: I added a few things to the menu side and stuff like that.

In eight days Keith and I will be married one year. OMG! I can’t believe it. One year. :hearts: We’re not sure what we are going to do. I told him I wanted to stay in bed all day and just be with him. He is off work and I’m not getting near a computer all day. That’s Keith and Jenni time. I love my baby! :heart: I think he said something about maybe going out to a movie or something like that but I kind of want to stay home. :lmao: I know most girls would want to go out. 😐 I think about it like this. We have went through a lot in this first year. So many ups and some downs and some in the middle. I would like to stay home and think about it all; talk about it. I want us to stay home and realize how lucky we are. Most couples leave each other in the first year. I think something like 65%. I believe is what Keith told me. That’s just a crazy number. :hmm:

I have been getting a lot of postcards now. I joined a LJ community it’s called Postcard Junky. It is such a neat thing. I believe I have already got around eight or so. I have sent out replies to just about everyone of them expect two. I will do that Monday. I don’t feel like sending them today or at least writing them out. Maybe later but by that time it will be to late. The mail would have already ran. I might start taking pictures of my postcards or something like that. I love getting them and sending them. I don’t know of must else that gets me happier when the mail runs. Postcards are my friend. 😛

I think I am going to be off for a while. I need to go to bed soon. I have to get up in a few hours to fix Keith’s lunch for work. He works today and tomorrow. :poo: I wish he didn’t but I know we need the money.

Junky!

I found a really neat web site: Kentucky Gas Prices .Com which I found that web site from this web site: GasBuddy.Com. You can find out how much gas prices are all over the US and CA. I find that neat. I am such a dork. 😳

Keith and I have to go shopping tonight at Wal-Mart. We have so much stuff to get. It’s because he got paided tonight. :money: = 😀 LMAO. We have tons of food items to get and little stuff we need around the house as well.

We got a new puppy. I give the puppy to Keith for our one year anniversary :hearts: which isn’t until the 25th but I went a head and gave it to him. Isn’t that sweet? 🙂 I think so. The puppy is 3 months old and Keith named him Butler. I wanted to name him Killer because how small he is but I let Keith name him since it is his dog. You know?

I feel really bad about not updating in the last few weeks. See I have been busy working on different projects for work (Chet and M-L). I have been working my tail off trying to get everything in order. Everything is coming together. I have a meeting to go to for the M-L Saturday and then that after noon is mine and Keith’s date night. We might go to Dinosaur World because it’s dollar days. We can get in to a dollar each (normally it is $9.75 for adults). I’m not paying that to see some fake dinosaurs but a dollar yeah I will pay. It’s a neat thing to see and do but not almost $10 a person. I find the place to be neat and fun. We took the girls last year when they had dollar days and the girls had so much fun. Every time they pass it they say “That’s where Keithe and Nanny took us. It was so much fun!” Isn’t that sweet? I love those girls so much.

I’m working on some stuff for the website. I’m working on a new layout right now, working on updating the pages and maybe changing the look a little and working on stuff here and there.

I’m off for a while. I have work to do. Like always.

Great news!!

We found Cheddar. Well, Nathan found Cheddar but still the same. He found her!! I was so glad. Keith and I felt such a load off out backs. :cute:

Keith and I went out to the movies :movie: today after we took Nathan to meet up with his dad. We went and seen Boogeyman. It was really good. It scared the crap out of me. But still the same good movie.

I had something else to say but I forgot what it was. Damn it! :dead: Oh yeah, Christine, I don’t mind at all to write a few step by steps for Gimp. I know gimp like the back of my hand. I’m that good. LOL I know; big ego. 😳 I can’t help it. I use gimp all the time. I don’t use anyother graphics program. I might also put some of the patterns and brushes I have made to download. I am working on putting fonts on the site as well.

Oh yeah, before I forget. Anyone who leaves a real comment on my new guestbook will get their 468x60px banner on my site for life. 😀 Yeah, I am in a very giving mood. Just leave the comment then, send me an email giving me your name, site name, banner URL, site URL. That’s it. Just leave a comment in the guestbook and send an email to me. 😀 Lucky you, huh?