AFNI

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Update on life

So many things to talk about. Where do I start. . .umm. . .well, Oral Communications is going okay, not sure how I feel about it but it’s okay. I don’t hate it but I don’t love it either. I think I am doing okay in the class far as a grade but I really don’t know because I don’t have anything graded.

I am selling my netbook and my nook so I can buy a nook color. I am in the process of being without the netbook now. I kind of miss it but since summer started I have picked it up maybe twice. Not a big deal. Just something else to keep track of.

I had a job interview today at 1pm for ShopNBC. It is another call center but I am hoping it is different than AFNI. I know it does pay more. It starts out at $10.20 hourly + more if you have worked in a call center before. 😀 Which I have. They said they will call or send you a letter letting you know one way or the other. But I have good faith. My friend Lance that I worked with at AFNI is a trainer there and said he put in a really good word for me. *crosses fingers* He said he already put his approve on it. Which is awesome. It is 3:30 – Midnight. That works out great, I get out of class around 2:50pm during the fall. I am going to be tired but we could really use the money. I know it’s only part-time. All I really wanted anyway. Kyle’s check is enough to pay the bills so I don’t have to work but it doesn’t really leave anything extra for us. So, I want to help us out. I am truly looking forward to getting a paycheck again.

Well, I worked on a project for a friend already, I looked up school info for another friend that doesn’t have internet. I went shopping for groceries and had a job interview. I am tired.

PS: I also love the new dashboard for WP. Very nice. Random.

Goodnight world. Have a lovely night.

Silly, Silly, Silly

I love him. Simply put. Nothing more, nothing less. I have been trying. Really trying. I don’t understand. I know what I did was wrong. I feel like I have made up for my actions. I have tried on so many levels to fix every little mistake.

We have moments that are unbelievable. So perfect. Then we have moments like tonight on the phone. He feels like I have a tone. The tone says things I did not. Even when I truly don’t have a problem. I do says the tone. In all reality. Nothing was wrong. I said what I meant. I said how I felt. God dang! Hello?

He finds ways to fight with me sometimes. I don’t understand. I love him. I just want us to be okay. I want everything to play out correctly. For once. Not a happy ending but just a “my world is not crashing” ending. I just want to be content. I’m not looking for a happy moment, every moment of every day. I just want to be content.

I get that when he is in a good mood. I get to be content sometimes. When he deems it so. It has been his way or no way for months now. Since I started trying to be back with him. Which is okay. If he wants it that way. But god dang. When is enough, enough. How much do I have to do or take to make it “even”?

I’m not even sure of this blog entry. I am just upset over a stupid phone call. It was nothing. I promise, promised that I was okay. Which I am. I am okay. I am just upset too. I’m not mad. I just think it is totally silly. I mean, really.

I guess I need to go a head and get my shower. Get my clothes together. I have a job interview tomorrow at 11am. Then work at 12pm.

March birthdays

I’m in a really good mood. Not sure why. The month of February I sucked at blogging. I don’t think I did anything more or less that month just didn’t get around to blogging. I’m at Cody’s tonight watching them play rock band. Listening to my iPhone and hanging out.

I got a nice hot shower. Just messing around on the net. My mom’s birthday was Monday. Went to Applebees Sunday. Monday the 16th will be Caroline’s birthday. So much fun. I told mom tonight if Caroline wants to spend the Saturday night with me she can and she can have a friend over. OMG! Eleven. I can not believe it already. It feels like just yesterday I was going to the hospital to watch her being born. WOW!

Tomorrow is going to be an okay at work. My team I’m on gets lunch brought in to us. Yummy! 🙂 Feel lunch is always good.

I might get off here and txt my Cammie.

You ever feel like

You have forgot something and not sure what it is. I feel that way today. I have really enjoyed my day off. Next week my days off are messed up due to having to go to the Doctor with Meadow. And switching shifts from 1 – 10 to 12 – 9. Wait, maybe I switch this week to 12 – 9. Not sure. Most likely should call tomorrow.

I have a headache. Just got home not to long ago. I think I am going to lay down and watch some TV at my house for once. lol 🙂

Special dinner

I’m home tonight. Very nice. I am very tired but happy to be here. I do miss him very much. I will be dreaming of him.

Last night was very fun. I haven’t been out with friends in forever. I went bowling. Dollar night at the bowling ally. We played two rounds. I lost very badly but enjoyed myself like you wouldn’t believe.

I have to work on V-day but that’s okay. That night I’m cooking a very special dinner for Cody. Maybe getting a chick flick and a bottle of wine. Sounds very nice. A nice dinner at my house. I need to do some cleaning around here for tomorrow night but totally worth it. 🙂

I am so happy right now. Tired but very happy.