I delete the hostee blog and going to add one more new hostee. Maybe another. I just don’t know yet.
Going to add some pictures soon. Not of prom but other random things. And adding some rants. I think I need to get out some of this anger. What do you think? LOL
Off to read!
Prom is tonight. I am getting picked up by Lizzy-Bell around 12:00pm and she is going to do my hair and makeup. Then around 5:00pm I am getting picked by mom-bob (Tricia’s mommy). And we are going to have Jenny, Kitten, Emily, me, and Tricia in her mom’s van. This is going to be fun. We are going to go to the place where prom is at take pictures, then go out to eat at the local mall and then come back to prom. Stay there from 8:00pm until 12:00am. Then go to the after prom party (a lock in). And we will be locked in until 6:00am. I hope I have fun. My friends and I are going to walk around the mall telling people this is how we dress all the time and we don’t know whats wrong with these people. LOL
I spend the night with my grandmother last night. I got to read like over half my book. I was happy.
I want to think Adrienne and Evy for posting a comment. Thanks, it means a lot to me. : )
Talk to you all tomorrow. See-ya Sunday!! =) Off to PARTTTY!!
“Realize that this life you thought was yours was a dream you had been dreaming for ten thousand years.” -Some Guy’s Finger Nail, by: me
I feel like that a lot. I mean that little bit of poem. It says how I feel. It says what I am feeling right now in this moment.
I fear that I might be slipping back in to a depression. Very slowly at first but it seems to be getting closer….I don’t laugh as much as I use to and I don’t talk as much. It kind of scares me. I use to have a lot of bad habits when I was depressed. I did a lot of things that wasn’t good for me. That hurt me physically and mentally. I use to sit and cry for hours on end about how I wanted to just be off alone. I hated feeling like that. It hurt me horrible. I almost died inside.
It was really hard on me to get better. So you can only think about much it hurts to be fearing something that has happen once and stayed for almost two years. It hurts…
I realized that I hurt people….more often then I really knew. I called an ex-boyfriend today just to talk. And he read me one of his stories he wrote for college and I wanted to cry. I think he thought he said something wrong to make me get off the phone with him but he didn’t. It’s just that I realized that I hurt him very badly. I feel so horrible for it. I have hurt Kitten more then her share. I have hurt ex-best friends, people that has been very “IN” love with me.
I have been told that its easy to fall in love with me. I don’t know if it is. I sometimes wished I hadn’t met some of those people; it would make it easier on them. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad that I got to be with them but in the end I believe that it would had been better to just had never met.
Off to cry, think, hope that my fears aren’t become my reality and to maybe sleep a little.
I’m in such a odd mood. Today was been just peachy. NOT really!!
I have cried, got upset and kept up a good spirit the whole time. Give me a freaking bone here!! LMAO
I still don’t know how I’m getting to prom. I need to learn to drive. But on a higher note…I got my permit last week. I can’t really drive that well but hey I’m going to learn.
I heard from an old friend. I emailed them back and I’m might be calling them in a few. 🙂 I think that I might.
Off to go call people. Old friends, Tricia, Jenny, and maybe Kitten….but Kitten way later.
I feel like screaming. I’m not sure why. I just want to scream. Get out everything going on in my head. I have so many thoughts running around.
First, I would like to say to Dave, CANDY is what I live for. I love to eat it. That’s the reason I love Easter and Halloween. I love IT!! lmao
Oh and another thing. I watched The Ring tonight. Odd ass movie. It was good but very odd. It scared the shit out of me.
Oh, about what I wrote. I do feel like screaming. I want to write too. I’m in such a writing mood. That’s odd, I’m not use to writing a lot. Ummmmm….wonders!
I have been thinking about every little thing that goes on in my life…NO matter how small or how big. Even the little things seem to matter more then they did before. Its really odd to me. I feel like running in to the dark and dancing around until the moon falls and the warm glow of the sun comes up. =)
God, I need to stop typing. I’m going to say something I didn’t want to say.
I put up a new layout!! Hope you like? Tell me what you think!!