friends

I truly don’t get it

You know what I don’t get. Okay. So everyone gets what the hell is going on. We are going to have a couple named Boy and Girl. Boy and Girl is our friends. Well, was our friends. This is how it starts. Sit down for a while. I have a store for you.

Boy and girl love each. Have a few fights with each other. Like any other couple. Boy saves girl from a horrible live. (As I hear it. Still not sure the hole story but never the less) Saved her while still in high school. He talks his over bearing parents in to letting her live there. They date for a total of two years. Now in college. Girl is under a lot of stress. Working, going to school, boyfriend and what not. Totally understandable.

Boy and girl still in love. Nothing wrong. Now out of no where girl loses mind. Decides she can’t do this anymore. Has to go to the hospital for 72 hours before she can leave. The day she gets out her mother who hasn’t really been in the picture picks her up takes her to her house that is about 3 hours or more away. Talking her into moving there; leaving everyone and everything that has helped her get her life in order for the passed two years.

Her mother lets girl get away with everything. A tattoo, new piercings and what not. She decides to leave boy for a new boyfriend. (Let’s call him boy 2.) Mother lets girl let boy 2 stay the night, shower together, sleep together. Even when she knew boy 1 loves her more then anything. Boy 1’s family has signed bank notes and what not for her to go to college. Let her live in there house for a year. She had barely left boy 1 before she had cheated on him with boy 2. Girl and boy was waiting to do anything together until marriage. What the hell?

I truly don’t think girl loved boy. She has a fight with new boyfriend and runs to boy 1 for help. WTF?!? Boy 1 loves her so much that he listens. Helps her. His heart is breaking. . .She doesn’t seem to care. She says things just to hurt him. She even brings new boyfriend to boy 1’s house to get her stuff. If I had been boy 1 I would have kicked boy 2’s ass so hard he would have been coughing boot weeks from now.

God dang! That’s all I have. I don’t understand. But watching this really bad break up has made me truly look at my own relationship and think god I love him. That I know that he wouldn’t do that to me and I wouldn’t do that to him. I have more respect for him then that. That she didn’t love him or she wouldn’t have done that that way.

If she had wanted to break up. She could have done it in a way for him to understand. But no one around her understands. I know she hasn’t called me. I don’t hate her. I don’t. But I will never trust her again. I wish the best for her but I will never forgive her for hurting boy 1 that way. He is such a great person.

Everyone has something to hide

I got this idea from one of my friends on her myspace profile. You type a little info about how you feel about someone. You don’t put names and you let them guess, who is who. I like the idea. I think it kind of helps me. 🙂 Most likely half the people that these are about won’t even read it but that’s okay. It’s still there if they do decide to be apart of my life again.

  1. We are so many miles a part. I just wish I was their for you as much as you have been for me.
  2. I don’t understand you. I never have. You was one of my first loves. I just wish you didn’t look down apon me so.
  3. I will always love you. I wish sometimes we didn’t live so far apart and we could have got a long.
  4. Simply put, I miss your friendship. You was one of the people that loved me for me. I need you again.
  5. I know we don’t talk very often. I think about you just about every other day. You need to get on a bus and come and see me. . .NOW.
  6. It wasn’t all bad, was it?
  7. I don’t think I have ever or ever will again love someone like I love you. I don’t want to fight anymore. And I hope what you hope, let it not be right now. Please not now. . .later is fine. . .but not now.

D-Day

Well, I’m finally divorced. It was final today. I remember after I signed all the paper work I was so happy. Now, I’m not sure what I feel. I know that I still don’t want to be with him but I also know that I still care about him very much. I wish him nothing but happiness for him.

I have so much still going on in my life. I still don’t have a job. I will be watching my nieces this week to make a little money. Then I’m not totally sure if I’m still moving or not. I think I might be moving in to BG. I just don’t know what to do.

I not sure what I need to do. If I move to BG my parents are going to kill me. I don’t need them to approve of my life, but I do like the idea of them being a part of it. I don’t really care if they like what I’m doing or not. My mom just keeps telling me that I need to just worry about what’s going on with me. And what is going to make me happy. Well, Cj does make me happy. He makes me feel so good again. It’s nice having that. :heart:

I want him in my life. I want him with me. I don’t think I could keep living here in Glasgow if he wasn’t here. It was going to make it really hard on us as a couple if we didn’t figure something out. I’m not totally sure if this is the best idea but I know I don’t want him dropping out of school or anything. I want him to follow his dreams.

Some many questions and not enough answers. Like always.

Fast update

I just wanted to post and say I am still a live. Not dead!! lol I have been very busy. I have been hanging out with friends a lot and I also finally got my car back. Oh, yeah! Finally!

I hope everyone is well. Leave a comment and I will hit you back. Thanks

Wow

Wow. I am still sick. Finally getting over all of this. I have so much going on in my life right now. I might need to post a password protect entry. Most likely I will. I need to get a few things out and I don’t need so to read it. If you want the password just leave a comment.

I’m have a get together tonight. Raymond, me, Todd, Amanda, Renee, Nathan and Brian. That doesn’t sound like much but in my small apartment, it might be to much. LOL Because most of them will be spending the night. Fun, Fun!