School, Christina & Doctor appointments

I am busy finishing up my last semester of school. Just two classes and I am done for now. I am so sick and tired of school. I feel like I have been doing it for way to long.

Christina came and visited from June 8th until June 15th. We had so much fun I just wish it was longer. Each visit she stays or I visit her it never is enough time. I just want her near. :/ I might end up writing an entry just about her visit, but today isn’t that day. lol.

In November of last year I had laparoscopic surgery on endometriosis and scar tissue. The doctors at that time thought this might be the reason why I hadn’t gotten pregnant at that point; which in November we had been trying a year and eight months. The doctor said he had great faith that he removed most of the endometriosis and thought my chances of getting pregnant would be higher. If I wasn’t pregnant within six months to come back. Well, May of this year was six months from my surgery and here I am still NOT pregnant. I called the office and I have to have some more test run. I have to have what is called a HSG (hysterosalpingogram). For people that don’t know:

A hysterosalpingogram (HSG) is an X-ray test that looks at the inside of the uterus and fallopian tubes and the area around them. It often is done for women who are having a hard time becoming pregnant (infertile).

I am been super scared up until this point because if I don’t know, then there is still a chance of me getting pregnant in the back of my mind. If I do this test and they find something that could be it. Kyle and I are done. I’m just scared of knowing. Sometimes faith and hope is all someone has.

Odd dream

I’ve had this dream twice now. Both almost the same. I’m in a house, it feels like I own it or I live there. I’m sitting in the living room with Cody (my ex) we are talking, laughing as if no angry ever was between us. It’s never sexual. Just as if we had been best friends all this time.

I feel so guilty when I wake up because I know it’s wrong to have anything to do with him. I don’t want him in my life nor have I had him in my life in years. I’m not sure why all of a sudden I’m dreaming about him now.

I feel like my brain is trying to tell me something but I have no clue what. I’m completely happy with Kyle. I have everything I have every wanted or need. Very odd to say the least.

Happy June everyone!

Happy June everyone! I can’t believe it is already June. . .I doesn’t seem like time should be going this fast.

I’m waiting on mine and Kyle’s paychecks to hit the bank so I can pay all of our bills due. Then I was planing on going to bed but I’m not sure yet. I’m wrapping up my 4 days off and not sure how I want to end my days off.

I did just finish all my core classes for my degree and learned some really neat PDO stuff for PHP but I don’t know how I want to use it. I did also find the book Learning PHP Data Objects A Beginner’s Guide to PHP Data Objects, Database Connection Abstraction Library for PHP 5. I started reading over it. I know some of the information it is teaching but I thought either way it would be a good read.

Well, time to check the bank accounts again.

I need to get it together

Things I must do; I really want to move all my entries from all my blogs, including the ones from back in 2000 over to EverNote just because. That way I have them, but I don’t have to go “live” with them. If I don’t want too. Also, I want to move start keeping better notes over all. I think maybe getting a real laptop, not a netbook might help this. I don’t even know. I have been wanting to blog for days but have had the time or energy to really do it.

Also, I finally have enough knowledge to start writing some simple PHP scripts, but I don’t know what to use them for. I fail. Every project I want to do has a script already. But maybe I could write one for my. . .wait, no. . .shit. Lost my thought all together. Don’t you hate when that happens?!?

Blah!! I have felt blah for a few days. Not sure what’s wrong. You ever just get that feeling like something bad is going to happen or something. Yeah, I feel that way.

PS: I get to see Alex tomorrow then this weekend I get to go to his birthday. He turns 6. I can’t believe he was just 4 when me and Kyle got together. Life is happening so fast around us. I miss that kid so much at times.