I am so hurt, so upset. I can’t even think right. I can not believe him. The one person I was suppose to trust.
I am such a stupid girl. Simply put. I knew better. I am stupid.
He should be getting it a lot worse. . . but I am being nice. I have no reason too.
If you had a choice, happiness or money, which would YOU choose?
I asked this same question on Twitter not to long ago. One person replied with Happiness. I keep telling myself that money doesn’t buy happiness, it buys comfort. Money makes life easier, with money you can buy anything. Friends, cars, houses, pets, anything and everything. But in the end, you still can’t buy love.
I would pick happiness. I would rather have no money and be happy and than have all the money in the world. To me, you can’t buy the things you need most in life.
So, in the end, which would you pick Money or Happiness?
The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours-it is an amazing journey-and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins. — Unknown
I posted this a few months ago. This same quote. I don’t think of it as mine own now nor did I then. My life never feels safe anymore. I don’t feel what I use to and I sure as hell don’t feel the same now.
I don’t feel lost anymore. I don’t feel anger. I feel for the people around me. I want closeness. I don’t get it but that doesn’t mean I don’t want it.
I want to go hang out when I want without being worried that I will have to come home to someone that will be mad. When they was doing the same thing 6 months ago. When he wanted to do it, it was all fine. I know he will most likely be mad about this too. Surprise. I’m sick and tired of him thinking I’m always in the wrong. I know I’m not perfect. I know I mess up. I know I am wrong. . .a lot. I’m not wrong for wanting to be happy. To want to have fun.
I want him to realize. We should be doing this whole life thing together, no fighting it with each but fighting it for each other. You know what I mean? I am happy at times. Happier than I had ever been. Then their is times I cry and I get worried and I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel lost.
Maybe things will get better. I can hope. Tomorrow is a new day.
Not much really been going on. Same old stuff.
Printer won’t work for some odd reason. It just won’t come on. Work is well work. I like it better then my old job. I like being able to sit at a desk. 🙂 My dad had to go to the doctor he thought he pulled something. Turns out he has a tumor like growth that he has to have removed and lets see, what else. I finally made a couple of friends here. Everything has been mixed up around here. Not all bad but not all good. Just in the middle it seems.
I don’t know what the hell really is going on. I have had this feeling of being over whelmed for days now. I can’t seem to shack it. I feel worried. I have been having nightmares just about every night. I don’t know. . .I just don’t know.
I’m not sure why I keep putting off updating. I’ve really not been that busy. I have been working Mon – Fri 10am – 7pm for the last two weeks and for the next two weeks for OJT (On the Job Training) I’m working 2pm -11pm. Then my normal work week will begin. Which will be Sunday and Monday off Tuesday – Saturday 3:30 to 11pm. I will be doing Web Chat for Verizon Wireless. I’m customer care. 😯 lol
I’ve made a new layout and umm. . .finally checked my email. Not much else. Oh, yeah, watching a crap-ton of Nip/Tuck. I’m so addicted.
PS: Today is Caroline’s 10th birthday. Where did the time go? OMG!