“I’m just playing, I know you’re a guy.” –Candice to Me on 11.13.03

I know I should feel better then I do right now but I don’t. I feel like blah, shit, in other words. 😕 I started my rag on my birthday. Which really sucks!! But any who, last night started good. It really did. My mom and dad went with Chris and I to go out eat at Red Lobster and then out to the movies and seen The Matrix: Revolutions. The food was great but half way through my dad gets pissy with my mother and so, for the rest of the night my mother was pissed off at him.

After the movie we dropped Chris off at his house and then we head on home. Well, about 5 minutes away from Chris’s house. My mother and father decide to start fighting like little children. Well, this pisses me off. It’s my fucking birthday and they have to act like little kids. WTF? I was so mad. By the time we pulled in my drive way. (30 minutes away from Chris’s House) I jump out of the car before it was parked, slame the door and run inside the house. I was so upset. I just wanted to cry.

Then they kept fighting when they got inside. I screamed at them to stop and everything else. They don’t. I finally told them. “I’m tired of the bitchin’, I’m moving out as soon as Ronda and Tony (Chris’s mom and step-dad) get in.” So, I guess I’m moving. I am going to have a friend of ours (Chris and I) to help me move some of my stuff this weekend. Ronda and Tony are coming in next week sometime. I will have to have Chris and Tony move my bed and stuff like that. I’m not sure how we are going to fit it in their car but I guess we can figure that out later.

WOW! 8 – O I have written so much. PurpleUsul.Com should be back up in the next day or two. I can’t wait. I love that site just as much as I love Faded Stars. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have my domains and web designing. I think I would go insane. Because every time I get something wrong I just go to the computer and make layouts and just start coding everything. I love it!! I know that makes me sound like a BIG dork. But that’s fine. I love being me.

I will, I repeat I will keep my domains and stuff when I move. Chris does have the net and we are running a phone line upstairs in our room.

Chris has been waiting for the day I move in since we started dating. When I told my mom and dad, mom just looked at me and started the facts “I knew you have wanted to leave for a while. I could tell. I knew you were counting the days down.” And she was right. She was like “I don’t know if I really want you over there or not but their isn’t much I really can do, now can I? Your 18 now.”

And yet again she was right. She can’t stop me. I will have to get a job now and start fighting for myself. But life is hard and you go on because you have too. And that’s what I plan on doing. I understand it is going to be hard but fuck, I really don’t care anymore.

PS: From Candi-Bear: What is up?! I was sitting here typing my ideal letter to the review and the English teacher says I can’t use it. It sounds like this “Dear Reveiwer,
Most of the time, I try to be nice. But sometimes I just can’t hold it in. I don’t want to be invisible. I want to be real. I hate this school. I’m only writing this because my English teacher is a little old lady who looks like she could be standing in a cornfield on a horror movie. She just freaks me out!..” *Sighs* She wouldn’t let me use that in my letter though. I don’t know why. I was being sincere…:( Oh well. Laterdays 🙂