I bet you think this blog is about you, don’t you?

June 16

I bet you think this blog is about you, don’t you?

His mother told me, “If he is suppose to leave you alone, leave him alone!!!!”. I believe I am not suppose to write an entry about whoever I want when ever I want. Let me get this right. I, who pays for the domain, who lives in the land of the free, can’t write a simple goodbye note. Something that was meant just to get how I felt about, out in the open. Wasn’t like I wrote something bad. Wasn’t like I wrote something mean. I simply wrote. Goodbye. That is it. Nothing more, nothing less. I could have been a bitch but I didn’t. I could have said so much more but I didn’t. I won’t. I am a bigger person than that.

I don’t believe I got the note that said I couldn’t write whatever I wanted to write. I don’t really remember that. Damn it. I must get more note pads to write on. But wait, remember, I was the one with a good job, a place to live and a new car. Forgive me for working to get everything I have. Forgive me for carrying everyone else’s load for so long. Forgive me.

I feel as if I can look be on all this and become a better person. I don’t regret the past year, I don’t regret my past 4 years. I am who I am because of everything. I will have to rise up be on the hurt and pain. I will have to find ways of forgiving. Never forgetting but always forgiving. Karma finds a way around to everything. Good or bad.

Remember, don’t judge anyone. Everyone is working on a harder battle. I don’t understand people. Like they have a fucking right to judge anyone or anything. As if they are better or even worse. I know I have made mistakes. I know I’m not and never will be perfect. This is something some people will never get out of their head. I have worked my butt off for as long as I can remember. And I will be damned if a snot nosed little brat is going to bring me down because of it. Fine.

Remember, you are the one that said “If you think your ready, then fucking bring it.” It will be. It will be.

xox

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  1. c – Jun 16, 2008 at 21:07

    That is the best blog title ever! Although I have the song stuck in my head now lol

  2. Candi – Jun 17, 2008 at 05:06

    :love:

  3. Keith – Jun 17, 2008 at 07:35

    Yeah, now I’ve got that Nine Inch Nails song stuck on repeat in my head…thanks a lot! 😉

  4. CJ – Jun 18, 2008 at 11:46

    Look, I have no control over my mothers actions. I am leaving you alone. No altercations,no backstabbing or just doing shit to hurt anymore. None of you people like me, fine, I get it. I am moving on. I don’t talk about Jen, I’m simply leaving it alone. I never tried to stop her from exercising her free will or wtf ever. Goddamn. You have your friends I have mine, There is no need to go back and forth anymore. You win, I surreneder. I’ve not tried to contact you, or harrass you anymore, what else do you fucking want from me? An apology, fine I’m sorry, I don’t expect one from you. the last thng I have to say is I am sorry, sorry for a lot, sorry for things I said, didn’t say, things I did, and thngs I should have done. I will not forget you, No more feelings of hate, not name calling, nothing like that. If this is how we are going to leave it then just know i did care about you, I still do, I don’t want to be with you and I’m glad I knew you for the year we were together. I’m trying to be the beter person you thought I could be, it is a late start but you have to start somewhere. If my mother is bothering you I will keep her out of your business. i hope whoever your with, or not with , I just hope you are happy okay. That is all i wish, I wish you good health, children, a long life and someone to love. Goodbye Jenn, Good night and sweat dreams forever.

  5. Doesn't matter – Jun 30, 2008 at 02:49

    Love it! So much passion. One thing that I absolutely CAN NOT stand is when others judge. It has to be my biggest pet peeve. Something you should realize is that everyone has an opinion, and not everyone is going to agree with your point of view, but that is the beauty of it all.. That is why our forefathers fought and died so that we do have the right to say what we want. Don’t let negative feedback keep you from voicing ‘your’ opinion. It is those that choose to be negative because they have no back-bone of their own to say what they truly mean. No. It isn’t always going to make everyone happy, but if you are offended simply move on to another person’s blog!!

  6. Doesn't matter – Jun 30, 2008 at 02:49

    Love it! So much passion. One thing that I absolutely CAN NOT stand is when others judge. It has to be my biggest pet peeve. Something you should realize is that everyone has an opinion, and not everyone is going to agree with your point of view, but that is the beauty of it all.. That is why our forefathers fought and died so that we do have the right to say what we want. Don’t let negative feedback keep you from voicing ‘your’ opinion. It is those that choose to be negative because they have no back-bone of their own to say what they truly mean. No. It isn’t always going to make everyone happy, but if you are offended simply move on to another person’s blog!!

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