Never tire

May 16

Two things I will never get tired of books and wine.

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Wordless Wednesday: Adult Sippy Cup

March 19
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Friday 5: Breath

March 14
  1. What are your weapons in the fight against bad breath? My toothbrush.
  2. What activity most recently caused you to be out of breath? Running back and forth at my other job.
  3. How does your breath smell right now? Like wine.
  4. What are some songs in your iTunes (or other media player) whose titles contain the word “breath” or “breathe?” Which is your favorite? Not sure.
  5. What was the last thing you cleaned using condensation from your breath? My glasses.

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Wordless Wednesday: too close to home

February 26
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Infertility is all too heartbreaking

February 25

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People that have never suffered with infertility on a daily bases will never understand the pain and hurt someone like my husband and I go through. People will never know the thoughts, the strain on our marriage because the thought of completing your family is so out of reach all because you don’t have a big enough bank account. You don’t have the $5,000 – $10,000 for IVF nor do you have the $10,000 – $40,000 to adopt. And it’s all not just about money either.

I’m mad at my body, I’m mad at his body all because we can’t do the one damn thing our bodies are suppose to do. Create life. You have this idea in your head when you first start trying for a baby. It won’t take long, a few months. Then weeks, months, and then years start going by and you realize that this idea you had will never be. That’s hard to deal with. It’s even harder to deal with the fact that you and your husband are the 20% that infertility effects both. How “lucky” can you be?

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I hate the person infertility has turned me into. I want to be happy for my friends and family that are starting their families. I want to be happy when I see birth announcements. I don’t want to hide my friends on FB because they are posting belly pictures and updates. I don’t want to be bitter. I just want to be happy like healthily, normal people. I don’t want to have to ask my husband questions like “we will be okay if we never have kids?” or “will this life be enough for us?”. Sometimes it is all too heartbreaking.

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