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A new chapter

I finally have water. I was without for 9 days but living so close to family really helped out. Dad was amazing on helping me get it fixed and running. I had to wait so long not because of my father but because the weather wouldn’t warm up. But it has finally! 😀

Raymond has been gone for a week tomorrow. He hasn’t called or anything. Very odd. You think you would want to know why you are kicked out but he didn’t care. He kept bumming off other people without missing a beat. He is great like that. Don’t get me wrong. I love my brother but I can only take so much. He had been living with me almost a year and still no a temp to find a job. Jobs don’t get up and fall into your lap. Promise. You do have to go looking.. .dang.

Far as that. Thank you all for all the wonderful comments on the past couple of entries. I like to hear from army wives and people that have dealt with long distance relationships before. It helps me feel less alone.

I hate being without Cody by my side. He has been such a big part of my life for so long and to think he is having to deal with something so hard like basic training a lone hurts me, scares me. We always deal with our problems together. Facing them head on. Him having to do this a lone is so depressing. But I know in the back of his mind he is worrying about me right now dealing with all the bills, taking care of the house like pipes freezing and our heater messing up and things like that. I know scares him too. I guess this is just another chapter in our lives that we have to face a lone but together if that makes any sense at all. I know most of these feelings are normal and theses fears are normal. I keep telling myself that.

It’s crazy but I have these little things that make me feel so close to him. Like, I check the weather where he is or every night no matter what I always say “good night, sweet dreams. I love you.” or I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night feeling for him. Or I almost expect him to be at the house waiting for me when I get off work. Which is kind of depressing when he isn’t but I know once these 27 weeks (10 weeks at basic & 17 weeks at AIT) are over we are going to be so close and finally plan our wedding and honeymoon.

WOW, when I read over that and look at 27 weeks. . .I cry a little because that is FOREVER! January has been going by pretty quick. I hope the rest of the months will too.

I need to get off the internet and stop watching TV. I have a love letter to write to my baby. Those brighten our day. I can’t wait till Sunday. I will cross fingers get another phone call. To hear his voice. To hear how much he loves me. . .makes my week.

So much drama

I am so sick and tired of the drama. My dad did come and fix my pipes. Raymond came and kind of helped. Dad finished the rest of the pipes today without him. We are waiting 24 hours for all the glue to dry on the pipes. So. hopefully I have water by Sunday afternoon. I miss water. I hate taking showers at other people’s houses. It sucks.

I kicked Raymond out last night. I am so sick and tired of the drama he brings in to my house. I can’t trust him with a key because I don’t know who he would have at my house. I can’t trust him here while I am at work because yet again I don’t know who will be in my house. He eats his weight in food weekly. He has 5 kids and 4 baby mama’s. I am just sick and tired of it all. He fights with them. Leaves them, then makes up long enough from them to pay his child support then he leaves again. He doesn’t work. It is like pulling teeth for him to even wash dishes. I work. I’m not here most of the time. WTF? But anyway, enough with my brother drama. I have put a stop to it.

Meadow is spending the night with me. You never realize how simple life is until you hang out with a 9 year old. Time to lay in bed. Watching Hancock and heading to bed. 😀

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No bail out for me

I am so upset about my freaking water pipes. They have been frozen since Friday the 8th. It makes me so mad because all Raymond had to do is leave the water dripping. Like that is so freaking hard. Now it has warmed up enough to turn the water back on at the meter to see if it has unfroze. Well, it had. Bad news, it was the main pipe going from the water meter to the house. So, it is broken now.

I have to work tomorrow but dad said he would come over and help try to fix it. The deal is that Raymond has to be there and well, he fails. He left today and still hasn’t come back home. He just text and stated that he would be here in the morning. If he isn’t, I have news for him. If he bails on me and doesn’t come home to help me fix this. I am kicking him out. It was his fault for turning the water off. I just don’t know what I am going to do besides try to get under the house and fix it. The joys of being a home owner. I am glad in most cases because it is paid for and I don’t worry for rent but then this happens and I can’t just call some one and be like, “hey. Come fix this.” Like when I was renting.
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Tomorrow Cody will be gone to basic training for a week. I am still waiting on my first letter. Weather has been terrible so I haven’t really been able to get the post office. Which is sad. But I did get to have two phone calls this week. Each totaling in 2 minutes each. I loved hearing his voice. This week has went by slowing. I am hoping it picks up. I want to hold my baby.

Besides that, work has been going great. I like the people I work with. I enjoy my job. I get to sit in a room scanning the old deed, marriage and mortgage listening to my MP3 player. It is a pretty awesome job. My boss is awesome too. 😀

My lip is killing me. I bit it and now it has a huge sore on it. I have been trying to doctor it but it isn’t getting much better. Then my water pipes froze. Which sucks. I had great luck until I went to work and my brother turned off all the dripping water. The butt nugget.

Work: my first day

I started work today. I have been bitching this whole week before about starting and being nervous but it was amazing. I love my job. It’s super easy, I am going to be working Tue, Wed, Thur and Friday a total of 28 hours a week at $10 an hour. After tax about $240 a week. Which is amazing. I have never worked anywhere that paid weekly. I can take breaks when I want. Amazing. I love it. Simple as that. I keep saying that but I really do. The people I work with are so nice and easy to get along with.

I heard from Cody today. He got to make a 2 minute phone call. He sounded kind of sad. He said it wasn’t as bad as he thought. He loved and missed me. We made a promise to always say “Good night. Sweet dreams.” every night no matter what. I have held up to my end. I hope he is too. Because we always say it before bed. I am really glad I heard from him. I was so worried.

I am so tired from getting up so early today to be at work on time. The joys of having a day job. Which is awesome too! lol 😀 Well, I need to get to bed since I am not sure if I will work tomorrow or not. Since it is suppose to come a bad winter storm tonight and I am not driving in ice and snow.