- A sticky note is supposed to be used for sticking notes temporarily to stuff. What’s a different way you’ve used a sticky note? I wrote passwords, how much I need to pay off or what people need to pay me for weeks at a time.
- Plastic cutlery is supposed to be used for moving food from a plate to your mouth a few times before being discarded. What’s a different way you’ve used plastic cutlery? I’ve kept plastic cutlery for lunches so I didn’t lose my “real” cutlery.
- Books are supposed to be for reading. What’s a different way you’ve used a book? Top hold up my Macbook, to keep a drink from leaving a ring on my table.
- A file folder is supposed to be used for holding and organizing important papers. What’s a different way you’ve used a file folder? I have put everything on my desk in it until I had time to deal with the paper work.
- A shoe is an article of clothing meant for wearing on a foot. What’s a different way you’ve used a shoe? To kill bugs, to let the dog have a chew toy. You know, normal stuff.
A sad Christmas for us
Friday (12.20.13), Kyle & I learned we will never conceive children naturally. Our only hope most likely will be IVF. That’s a tough pill to swallow.
People who have biological children don’t really understand what it’s like to realize there is a very real chance you will NEVER be able to conceive naturally. Hence, even considering adoption takes a huge leap of faith because as much as you will love any child you may adopt, they will never be the combination of you and your partner’s genes.
Every holiday with family that has babies/children is a kick in the womb. All I can think about is how Kyle & I might not ever get the chance so many bad parents take for granted. How unfair is that? I feel like my infertility is consuming me. I hate the person I’m turning into because of it. I’ve never been the one for being jealous of anyone but I am. I’m jealous that to me everyone has the only thing I can’t have: a child.
At what length is too great to try to make your family complete? How much money is too much to spend? How long is to long? When is it time to realize your womb, your family, your whole idea for what you wanted might never be? When is it time to except your dreams are broken? When?
Even in
Even in my darkness night he stands by my side.
I love you Kyle Thomas without you I don’t think I could ever be half the person you have made me into. I truly am a better person for having you in my life!
Me & Kyle at a wedding!
Infertility sucks!
Sometimes I feel like my infertility makes me a terrible person because I hate looking at social media and seeing everyone pregnant or just had a baby and I just want to de-friend each and everyone of them. I truly want to be happy but I have so much hate because they each one of them has the only thing I truly want. The one thing that I want to complete my family is the one thing I can’t get.
I am going under treatment for my infertility and I still haven’t got pregnant yet. I have only taken the Clomid only one cycle but my doctors told me not to take it this month since Kyle hasn’t had a chance to go to the urologist (Kyle has a low sperm count and we don’t know why since all his blood work came back normal). His appointment is at the end of this month, once he does that we find out his problem we go from there. I am so sick and tired of dealing with it out.
Why can’t it just happen? Why can’t I be the one? Why can’t I just be happy for everyone? I am so tired.
New Car: Mini Cooper
Me & my new car!