Keith

Never the same

Things never seem to stay the same. I am still talking to Todd, still sleeping with him and all. He called his g/f up a few nights ago and dropped her. She said she is done with him. This is very good for me. . .I guess. I mean I did win, but at what cost? :sneer: It doesn’t feel like I won.

Rainbow & Todd I don’t know what to really do. I think I am falling for this man. He is so easy to fall for. I hate to say that, I hate to think it, I hate to type it. I enjoy everything about him and don’t get me wrong, the sex is so good. :devil: I’m not totally sure what the hell is going on.

I want to know. I truly do but I kind of talked about it the other night with him but yet again I was drinking a little and kind of don’t remember what was said. I pretty sure I told him how I felt about everything and that I was hurt about it. I wanted to be with him and be the only one but that didn’t mean marriage or anything, you know. I mean, hell, I’m still in a middle of a divorce. ( Which will be final June 18 :yay: ) But anyway.

I think we are kind of a thing now for sure. He has been over here every night this week. I have been loving it. I just wish I understood better. He is ex-girlfriend has been emailing me and talking to me on myspace IM and I’m being very nice and I just keep telling her Todd and I are only friends. This is very hard for me. I DON’T lie to no one. I don’t care who you are. I just don’t lie. I hate it. I don’t ask much out of people but that is one of them. I can’t stand it when someone lies to me. Just don’t lie and we will be good. 🙂 Ok. lol

I wish I could post all these on my site without the password but since my divorce still isn’t final I really can’t talk about me being with someone else. Keith’s family would DIE. That’s all their is to it. Just DIE! lol My family knows and what not. They don’t mind to much.

I’m off for now. I believe I might make a public entry as well. And thank you for all the help guys. 🙂 It does mean a lot.

Fun title here.

I have had so much going on lately. I wish I had had time to really do something this weekend since it was my first since I started Wendy’s in 2005. I never get a weekend.

I guess I can go a head a say it. Keith and I are over over. We have been for a few weeks but didn’t want to tell everyone just yet. I believe this is truly for the best. I know it hurts the both of us but until we both do a lot of growing up, this is the best.

I am fixing to go hang out with my brother and some friends. Time to chill out for a while and then head to bed. I have to be at work tomorrow at 11. :yuck: I really don’t want to go but all well.

Don’t make me go

I didn’t want to get out of bed, let alone out of the house to go to work. For some reason I am very tired. :yawn: Not sure why either, I got around 10 hours of sleep. I think my body is still trying to play catch up. Neither one of my days off I got to sleep in, that totally bits. You know that right? lol

Work has got to the point I don’t even want to go anymore. I stay because I make such good money. I am thinking about looking for something different. If I go, most of my crew is going with me. Sad but true. They don’t really like working with anyone else. I don’t mind if they talk as long as orders get out and everything gets done. Most people love to work with me. My boss has run out of things to bitch at me about, so now she must bitch at me for little things that no body cares about. Like why the brooms aren’t hung up in the order of the picture. Okay, I’m sorry, but as long as they are in the closet, doesn’t that matter? Nope, now they have to be in the “right” order. Give me a break. . .That’s as much as she can get on me. But she has to find some reason to bitch. Shot me now, please.

I’m an Assistant Manager, have been for sometime now. I never miss work, I never leave early. I am normally a perfect worker. That’s why I think I can find another job making at least as much money. I just hate the fact it is going to be fast food again, but on the other side Fast Food pays very well once you get into management.

Oh, well. Anywho. . .time to clean up around the house some, eat and then get ready for work. :annoyed:

What else could happen

So much has happen. I think most for the good. I’m not going to get in great detail but if you know me in real life then you most likely know already. I just don’t feel the need to tell the whole world yet.

I’m not totally sure what to write about. I have a lot on my mind but not totally sure how to put it in to words. I really hate when that happens. I also, don’t want everyone in my life right now. I am trying so hard to get my life the way it needs to be and n0t the way everyone wants it to be. I have finally made a few choices for me. Finally doing a few things for myself.

Well, I better go. I have to work a 12 hour shift tomorrow and I’m very tired. :yawn: