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Terrible blogger

I am a terrible blogger. I have been wanting to update, but it seems life always gets in the way. I just started another semester of school, still working and we had been trying to find a place to move but at last the house loan didn’t come through like we needed, so we are stuck here for a few more months but I made myself this promise. We will be in a house by next year at this time.

I have had so much I wanted to blog about, like ex boyfriend Cody texting me for the first time in forever or the fact that like I stated we was looking at houses to buy, or school starting. . .just really over all boring stuff.

Far as Cody texting me. He started the first text off with “Since you are still friends with my whole family we should be too” and then preceded to tell me that he “always promised to tell me if he ever got deployed“. Well, it’s a little late to start keeping promises now, don’t you think asshole!?! I’m just stating facts. You also promised to “always love me”, to “always be there for me” or and lets not forget “promised to marry me”. Did you keep any of those promises? Hell no!! Ahhh, what an asshole!!!! That’s all I got. What kind of nerve do you have to text me after all this time? I texted a few little things back but after I did I felt dirty and used and almost heartbroken all over again. . .why? I’m not sure or maybe I felt more sorry for him or whatever the case maybe. He tired texting me a week or so later but it was only one message stating “Well, Jenn I finally got my first tattoo.” I didn’t even bother responding. I’m not even going to again. I don’t like the feelings he brings up inside of me when he contacts me. I feel so much angry still and just plan sorry for him. I have decided when and I say when / if, but he has been the one to contact me every time since I decided I was no longer going to contact him back when me and Kyle got together, but like I said it isn’t if. . .it’s when he contacts me again I am going to send him this:

Error: Your message could not be sent. The Ex you’re trying to reach has moved on. Error number: 3 years wasted!

I think it will get the point across. He made comments when we first broke up if he got deployed could he still write me like he did in basic. I told him then why not write your whore you left me for. I mean, if she was worth losing / leaving me over, write her. I’m not going to waste my time on you. He seemed hurt by this statement at the time but it’s how I feel. I’m not hiding any feelings from him now. I have no reason too. Oh god he won’t talk to me again. Thank god!! I couldn’t get so lucky.

Anyway, on a better note I got another client site to do. I have two clients right now but one hasn’t got back with me since they paid. Weird, and the other one I just started. At least they are paying jobs. I love the fact I get to work on different kinds of projects that I normally wouldn’t do for myself. You know?

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On a better note

Things I got done to things that still need to be done are kind of out weighing themselves out and I go back to work tomorrow. :/ Today (Dec 15th, I haven’t been to bed yet, so it still counts as today) was my husband’s birthday so I spent it with him, and we had two days off together so I just wanted to be around him since he works a lot of days and I work nights. I miss him so much. It’s the little things I miss. Like tonight, just falling a sleep in his lap. It was amazingly nice.

Things that got done on my past list:

  • Clean Office
  • Blog / sched­uled entries
  • Vac­uum
  • Make our bed Needs to be done all over again. lol
  • Wash and put way all clothes
  • Pick up liv­ing room
  • Start din­ner

Bad thing about that list is, that most of it needs to be done on a daily and I just don’t have enough time in the day to do it.

On a better note, Kyle and I get paid on the same night at the same time every two weeks. Makes paying bills a whole lot easier. I am pissed because I have paid everything that needs it and I was going to finally buy my second monitor for my computer. (I want duel screens to make working a little easier. My job has them and you never notice how much of a help it is when you are trying to multitask) but Wal-Mart won’t let me finish my damn order. Every time I try to login, it just shows the loading screen and then it won’t go to my cart and keeps repeating the cycle and then it won’t load a style sheet. Just really random shit. . . .Finally after 15 minutes of it doing that my order is placed. I know I shouldn’t have spent the money but I am getting paid for a web project that I’m working on and also for dog/house sitting for a friend while her and her family are gone for the holidays. Between those two extra “jobs” I can get it and have extra money left over.

Well, I guess since I have paid the bills and ordered myself something, it is time to head to bed. Kyle has to be up for work at 4am and I want to sleep next to him for a couple of hours before he heads out.

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Truly struggling

I have been wanting to blog for a few days but just haven’t had the time really. I just finished another semester of school. I believe I only have two more to go. I am still working but I did drop down to four days a week just because I wanted more time.

I am truly struggling with working, school and life. I don’t know how people manger to do it all plus be social or whatever else they want to do. I am terrible about balancing time. I don’t think it’s because I’m bad about losing time but I feel like I have no time to balance. I go to school from 12 – 3:40pm, I work 4 – 11:30pm. I also live a 45 minutes to an hour away. So I am gone most days for around 13 hours or more if I decide to go grocery shopping after work (thank the gods for Wal-Mart and Kroger 24-hours). I also have to find time to do homework, sleep, cook/eat, spend time with my husband and take care of house/animals. I have to say I do have a pretty amazing husband. He works also and goes to school. Most weeks are days off do not line up so we take turns with the house duties and the animals. We try to at least talk before bed and during our driving times. Text messaging is also our best friend.

I am very lucky to have a husband that does whatever that needs to be done around the house and he would must rather do it then wait and let me do it most of the time. I can’t thank him enough for all the support he gives me. I am less stressed now than I have been in the past doing just school or just work. He makes it all okay.

But I do find that my social life has taken a hit. My closest friends I never get to talk to just because our days off, or times we work or whatever doesn’t line up. I miss my friends. I have been trying to text or call to keep in touch but I am terrible about it. I am just so tired I would rather sleep than shower most nights. But I am enjoying my couple of weeks between semesters. I am going to enjoy the shit out of it. 😀

I hope to get a few projects done during that time. Blog more and spend time with my husband. :* Well, I do believe I am going to enjoy the dinner I cooked and watch some TV with the hubby!

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More entries

As a result of me trying to blog more I have been scheduling more entries. Most of the entries that I am scheduling are picture memes but never the less they are entries about things I love or have something to do with. I am trying to blog at least every other day or so. I know, I really don’t have that much to say but really I do. Sometimes I fear about blogging due to someone finding my blog. I do have my real name on here and Google pulls my stuff very quickly now a days. Thanks Google. 😉

I have a couple things I am going to blog about shortly. Not tonight because well, I’m tired but I will leave you with a hint of it. The hint will be this; a post I made on Google+ tonight.

Someone’s status on facebook read “So tired of bitches in my life. F@#k off!” and my first thought was to type “Some bitches don’t need to date sex offender while children in the home.” But I didn’t because I don’t cause drama on Facebook. lol

Now I know you want to come back for more. Hahaha. <- That was suppose to be in a evil laugh. I'm just saying. BTW, I am normally not a drama queen but I do have a lot to say about this one subject that has to deal with this person and her family. Only because I was so close to being apart of this family. Does that make sense? Well, I am rambling and it’s 1am. I think my bed is calling my name, very soon.