random

Aside

I realized

I have realized a lot here lately. I realized that I am a very pushy person. I normally have to have it my way or no way. And I realize that that does make me sound like a bitch and most of the time I am. I like to have things my way, I like to do the things I enjoy and I like to have the things I want.

But also I realized I have changed so much since I have started dating Kyle. I realize I give in way more easily now. It’s not a fight if something doesn’t work out or I don’t get what I wanted it’s okay. It’s not a fight it’s not a hassle. I’m okay with that. I am happy with that.

Before I would have fought for days over it now. . .it doesn’t even matter. He is more important. Getting a long is all the happy I need.

Just a random moment of thoughts.

Aside

Saturday 9: My Best Friend’s Girl

1. Have you and a friend ever have an argument because you were attracted to the same person? I think so in high school but that has been many years ago.

2. Who never returns your phone calls? Here lately my mother. Other wise, I most likely it’s me not returning them. oops.

3. What was your favorite childhood toy? Seems silly now but I use to go outside and play cooking. Find old pots and pans, spoons, and jars. And act like I was on a cooking show.

4. Who is the last person you greeted at your door? My brother, Stacy and their son Chance.

5. Would you change anything about your life right now? HELL NO! I am happier then I have ever been.

6. Who is the easiest person for you to talk to? Either muh Cammie or Kyle. It is a toss up.

7. If you could live in any ancient city during the height of the quality of its society and culture, which one would you choose? Good question, I have no clue. Maybe, umm. . .during the times of Egyptians. I want to know how the pyramids was made.

8. What is the most exciting event you’ve ever witnessed? I have no clue. Maybe Ozzfest 2004. I guess.

9. What do you consider the ideal age to have a first child? In 20s. I find it a good age to be able to enjoy having a child but still young enough to be a child yourself with them.

– Saturday 9

Aside

Just another day

The most boring of days. I woke up, and I needed to go grocery shopping and pick up Kyle’s van. I woke up about an hour before I was being picked up by Kyle’s mom Cendy (my soon-to-be mother-in-law). Before she came to pick me up I did the few things I have been aiming to do. Like putting away three loads of clean clothes. Washing another load. I also made my bed and took a shower before she picked me up. I was on it this morning. We went to Wal-Mart and Kroger. It was a very nice day.

Tomorrow I call about my test results that I had done a week ago tomorrow. I have everything that can be crossed, crossed. I am hoping for the good but I am preparing myself for the worse. I try not to think like that but I can’t help it sometimes.

I also have a family meeting with Life Skills tomorrow with Caroline. She is 13 thinking she is 21. And she thinks she is an adult. Her actions speak so load. She is so much a child. She has no idea what she is doing to her life. But that is another time and place.

Aside

Saturday 9: I Wonder What She’s Doing Tonight

1. Have you ever lost a lover and spent way too much time wondering what they were doing? Yes, wondered more then I would have liked to admitted.

2. What was your favorite vacation ever? Last year when I went to Holiday World with my family.

3. Do you like surprises? If yes, what kinds? Or are you one of those people who absolutely has to know what’s going on before it happens? I hate surprises. HATE THEM! I am to much of a control freak.

4. Have you ever written a poem? Feel free to share one. Or even a dirty limerick is OK.

One With The Night

I see blues and purples,
The sky dancing in form,
With the colors,
One without the other.

The moon rises so golden and fresh,
Almost new with the night.

Wild animals come out,
Work one with each other,
Almost in harmony,
Relying on one another.

I watch from my window,
Lying in bed,
Being amused with the night,
Wondering how something so beautiful,
Could be so scary,
Be so lovely.

All in one instant.

5. Did anything interesting show up in your mail lately besides the bills?Not really. I never get real mail. It makes me sad!

6. How many of your friendships have lasted more than ten years? Which of your current friends do you feel will still be important to you ten years from now? Family members don’t count.
 My best friend Cammie has been going strong for almost 13 years.

7. Do you own a pet? If so, do you buy them presents for holidays? Do you consider your pet(s) spoiled? If you don’t own one, do you think you will one day? I have a ton of pets and they do get gifts during the holidays. They are for real spoiled.

8. It’s Friday afternoon and you’re planning your weekend. What’s on your agenda on a hot August night? AC and a good book.

9. What’s your worst nervous habit? Biting my nails. . .

– Saturday 9