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Two options

I feel like I should update on life. Not a whole lot of stuff going on day to day life but some stuff does happen. Right now I had to have another biopsy over cervical dysplasia. Which in normal talk “pre-cancer” or the start of cancer. Which to me I thought couldn’t get any scarier then, August 1st, I had to have another biopsy done. Those cells are showing up again, not sure how bad yet but the doctor came into the office while I wait half naked. Stating two things if this pre-cancer is back or worse then it was in February I have two options. That is it. TWO! I am thinking okay. It can’t be that bad. Well, I was wrong.

Option one is put me in the hospital this time and do another LEEP / colposcopy and / or a cone biopsy. They want to take more of my cervices. Or Option two a hysterectomy. Not in my wildest dreams did I think that at 25 I would have to face this choice. That my future husband may not be able to have children and that his options for children can be answered for him because of this. I am so hurt by it. I won’t have a real answer to what I have to do until I get my results. Longest wait ever! They said 3 – 5 days. I should know something by Friday.

Kyle said he loves me and won’t leave if we can’t have children. They we have other options besides having children ourselves. But I wanted us to have a family so bad. I wanted us to have the whole life together. I just feel so sad and scared and hurt and so many other things that I just can’t put into words right now. I know he loves me, but how can he still want to be with someone that can’t have children. He said he kind of wanted a family but he loves me and wants what is best for me.

I love him so much and I am truly lucky to have someone like him. He cares so much and is willing to even sacrifice this for me. This is someone that loves me without borders, without limitations. Thank you Kyle for being so amazing and prefect for me!

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Ebay love

I love ebay. I really do. For many reason but today is because I ordered a cute Nook Color case on the 15th and the tracking number says it to be here tomorrow the 18th!! Awesome!! Good deal for $12.99. What is even more awesome, it was free shipping and I am still getting it that fast! 🙂

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Broke but happy

Here while back on twitter I posted:

I can’t remember the last time I was this broke & at the same time I couldn’t tell you the last time I was this happy either.

And it hasn’t been truer. I have no job, living from Kyle’s pay check to his next and always waiting on school money it seems but I haven’t been happier. I love him so much. No matter what we have each other. It really is a nice feeling. We have food, a roof over our heads and clothes. We don’t go out and do a lot of things but we do do a lot of things together. Right now we are watching Weeds together every night. Trying to catch up on all of them. We are waiting on Dexter to come out. We sit in our office and play on the computer. We play games on Xbox or Wii. The little things mean more to me then going out every week end or something like that.You know?

Anyway, just a random post. Good night moon!

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Refund like a boss

In February Kyle and I bought a front loading washer and dryer and a new double pillow top queen size mattress. We had them delivered by hhgregg it cost $69.99 to do so but we was suppose to get it back in the form of a rebate. Well, here it is June and we still hadn’t got the rebate back. I was a little upset for the reason they didn’t give us the rebate. Reasons being: we didn’t spend enough (we spent over $2,000), second reason can’t send to a PO box (I gave them both the PO box and are street address on the form), then the last reason was I didn’t fill out the store number (I sent in the original sales receipt with the store number on it).

So, while in town I went by hhgregg and talk to one of the sales people and now we got our $69.99 back. 🙂 Like a boss. Now, Kyle and I can go on a nice date with friends.

True story. 😀