Unbelievable

May 15

I haven’t really updated in a few days. I post little blog entries but not really posted a real blog entry. I have so many thoughts running in my head. Which is odd. I don’t know why I have had some many different thoughts about so many different things. Now I am making no sense. :question:

Last night I watched a show on A&E about a girl that was addicted to meth. It really got to me. I just sat and cried almost always through it. Most people don’t know because I don’t talk about it much but my brother, Raymond was addicted to meth for almost 4 years until he was put in jail. He lost his two kids over it and his wife left him. His two girls live with my mother and father and his wife ran off with another man.

The girls family in the TV :tv: show just kept having to deal with the same shit day after day. I really felt for her family. I love my brother very much but someone can only handle so much. I remember a lot of nights no being able to sleep worrying if this was the night my family would get a call saying my brother was dead because of an overdose.

Which is really scary since he overdosed in March 2001. He almost died. He doesn’t realize how close to death he was and the scary part is that he didn’t even realize that he was that close. That his heart rate was going from 54 bpm to 175 bpm. He had so many drugs in his system it was unbelievable. It still scares me to this day to think about it.

I hope my brother sees the πŸ’‘ light some day but who knows. At this moment in time he is in jail. At least I know he is getting 3 meals a day and has a bed to sleep in. It makes me hurt to think about the nights he use to run around and not care about anything it seems. πŸ™ I have to stop talking about this now. I don’t want to cry tonight.

A couple people asked in my last blog entry if mice eat their babies. About 5% do but 95% of the time they won’t. Not unless their is something wrong with the babies or someone picks them up to early. Not like hamsters. About 45% of hamsters will eat their babies sometimes more then that. Yet another reason I love having mice. But I do love my hammies as well. I love all of my pets; Mario and Princess (mice), Chewie (teddy bear hamster), Egg (dwarf hamster) and Cookie (dog, she lives with my mother and father). WOW! A lot of pets but I still take care of each and everyone with love. I am a dork. LOL 😳

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  1. Jenn – May 16, 2005 at 21:23

    Well, I can’t say much.. as I’m very much against the breeding of small animals, but be careful. You’ll have hundreds of mice within a few months. It’s also impossible to find homes for mice where they won’t be snake food. Good luck, though.

  2. Amanda – May 16, 2005 at 23:28

    I wish the best for you, your brother, and your family. Although it’s not nearly the same, my dad drank a lot when I was younger, and I know what effect an abuse problem can have. Like you said, hopefully he’ll see the light and overcome the challenges that face him.

    I’m glad to know your mouse babies won’t be eaten by it’s mommy. That would be sad. πŸ™

  3. Jameson – May 16, 2005 at 23:49

    Wow! That’s all I got to say. I must say, I’ve never really dealt with anything that intense with drugs and such.

    As for you mice and hampsters… That’s crazy! I’ve never heard of either animal doing that. Sometimes, I wish humans did that, though. Maybe I wouldn’t have to deal with my brother then. :dead:

  4. Jeni – May 17, 2005 at 09:10

    I have a crack addict for a brother, who is in jail. Meth is such a scary drug for everyone around it. *hug*

  5. dawn – May 17, 2005 at 15:44

    yeah my dad was real big into pot and kinda ruined our whole family.. he was stuck in prison and my mom left when i was 4.. .so i was stuck moving from house to house. I feel for the two kids of your brothers. Well, I hope things look up..they usually do!! Also, I want my tongue peirced, did it hurt?!

  6. Dorka – May 17, 2005 at 15:46

    I saw that A&E show you’re talking about. They actually had that woman on Oprah last week, and I think she’s been clean for like 4 months. They were saying how bad meth is and how it eats away at your brain. EEK! I’m sorry to hear about your brother. That’s terrible. I almost know the feeling, because Angel had a bad drug problem (not meth tho) and it’s such a strong addiction, that the only way for them to stop is to get treatment and actually WANT to stop. Hopefully your brother will stay clean when he gets out of jail, not just for himself, but for his children.

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