I have been trying to update on a daily bases again. Even if it’s small updates. Even if those are small updates.
Friday I will have been with Kyle a month. I am so head over heels for this boy. He is magic! I am truly happy again. It has taken me sometime to get back to this point. It has been a hard road. I’m not going to lie. But worth it. I understand why it didn’t work with anyone else now. He makes these crazy butterflies in my stomach. 🙂
Today is one of those days where not one thing is really going right. My car has failed me this morning. Not sure what’s wrong with it. It has been not starting randomly and Kyle’s car is just stupid. Something about the key that starts it won’t if it isn’t just right. Car fails.
Anyway, I am going to eat lunch with my baby!
After not sleeping very well at all last night I am still in a good mood. Weird. Not sure why but I am going to run with it. I hate being tired and sad, so this works. lol 😀
My trip to NY was amazing. I spent a whole week with my Cammie. Every time we get to see each other it gets harder and harder to leave. I can’t wait till we are living in the same state.
Well, class is about to start.
I am going to fly tomorrow for the first time ever in my life. I am going to New York to visit my friend. She came down here in May. I am so excited. 😀 I can not wait. I am scared too. I will be gone from Saturday to Saturday.
Wish me luck. I will post about the trip during or after I get back. Much love.
I have been aiming to blog forever. I have no real reason why I haven’t done so sooner. I have had time, I have had subjects I wanted to talk about, and so forth and so on but truly, I haven’t because I couldn’t muster the energy to do it.
The last few months have been very trying physically, mentally, and emotionally. I have started my depression medications back which has helped a little bit but a lot of it really is just pushing myself forward. Trying not to step backwards in this battle.
I twittered a while back saying “Depression is such a hard fight. I feel like I am fighting a battle I will never win.” and I feel that way 99% most of the time because of the fact as soon as I think it is getting better, it kicks me down again.
I feel so overwhelmed due to the fact, I am a full time college student now (by the way, I am very happy and proud of), a home owner (which means no land lord to call if something goes wrong), working part-time (sometimes closer to full time) and trying to have a social life. . .well, kind of a social life. The closest to one as I want to get at this moment in time. That’s a lot on my plate right now for one single person. I don’t have someone to share my stress with or help me with the things I need to get done or to even share anything with. I’m doing it alone.
I have been very lucky that my father and one of his friends has been doing the major things that need to be done outside to my home. Like building me a new front deck and they fixed my back one. We have the whole outside cleaned up. And random fact: I totally found a stop sign under my trailer. How awesome!?! 😀
Anyway, I do have more I want to write but I am lost for words at the moment. I am working on a new layout finally. I will be getting my new laptop either tonight or tomorrow. I am selling my 15.6″ laptop and getting a netbook since I have a desktop too.