“Can’t I surprise you with a kiss?” –Jenn (me) // “No, you can surprise me with a bl–” –Chris // “CHRIS” –Jenn (me) On 11.08.03

NEW LAYOUT!! I love it! I guess that’s all I really have to say right now. Chris wants me to talk to him right now, so I might do that. : )

Went to Wal-Mart with Chris’s family today. I suppose I had fun. Long story…tell ya, later!!

later taternuts

“I had always heard that your entire life flashes before your eyes the second before you die. Only that one second, isn’t a second at all, it seems to stretch out forever like an ocean of time. For me it was lying on my back at boy scout camp, watching falling stars. And the maple trees that line our street. Or my grandmother’s hands, and how her skin seemed like paper. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it’s hard to be angry when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes, I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and I can’t take it. My heart swells up like a balloon that’s about to burst. But then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it. And then, it flows through me like rain and I feel nothing but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry. You will someday.” –American Beauty

Yet again I am in the computer lab at school and should be working yet don’t want too. LOL I guess I am a lazy bum. 🙂 Good!!

I don’t know what I should feel right now. In one way I want to scream at the top of my lungs and just….just….I don’t know die…it seems!

I keep telling everyone that I’m okay, well the people that actually have noticed that something was wrong with me. Most people haven’t noticed. Which I am thankful for. It makes me mad to have people always asking me ‘what’s wrong?’

I guess I’m odd like that. Chris had someone give him a letter today that they “found” in the halls. It was from Kitten to me. Yeah…..So….now Chris is almost in a nervous break down. I think he freaked out over nothing. I mean…you know what? I’m going to keep my mouth shut now.

Chris is coming home with me today. I think he is spending the weekend at my house. Or longer…I don’t know. I guess I really should ask him. Anyway….I’m guess I will go…. 😕

Later Tater

“I’m going to stick my foot up your ass, break it off and wiggle my toes around!!And then what?” –Emily

Well, I just posted a private entry…only two or three people know the password and I don’t really want a lot of people to have it. I just needed to get everything and I didn’t feel like writing it…I just wanted to type it out. Faster that way. I swear. 🙂 I am lazy like that.

Wanna know where the title of the entries came from. The other day I was sitting there and I smelt of Kitten and I looked right up at her and said “You smell like bunny poo” I don’t know where the hell it came from. I swear…I just come up with the oddest shit. I think that I creep Kitten out because I can type while looking at her and not at the computer screen. LOL I am the DOMAIN GODDESS!! (Long story)

I AM RAINBOW FEAR ME!! I feel really odd right now. I’m not sure why. But yeah…..

Chris might be coming to house for the weekend but I’m not sure….I guess we will have to wait and see.

Anyway…later tater

“Since the day of my birth, my death began its walk. It is walking toward me, without hurrying.” –Jean Cocteau

I went to Chris’s house last night and spent the night. I had fun. We took a bubble bath together and everything. It was great. I cooked him supper. It was funny.

Corey & Jennifer (his brother and his brother’s g/f) came over with their 3 kids. Well, their son Seth (2 1/2) wanted to stay there with Chris and I. I was like come on Seth, lets go in. And Corey goes ‘Go on it with Aunt Rainbow and Chris’. I was like OMG! I’m already the aunt. 😛 It was funny. Well, I mean I’m an aunt to someone else’s kids. My brother has 4 or 5 kids. (Long story…don’t ask why I don’t know how many)

I’m working on a new layout. I have been really lazy about putting one up because Chris was over here for a week and then I went to his house over the week end and today I have been just fucking around.

Chris wants to get married next Halloween. Which I want to, yet I don’t….long story…you know what… I’m going to just stop typing now….

“Tell yourself, I’ve seen worse at Rutledge’s. Prevarication, in this instance, may help.” –Cheshire Cat, American McGee’s Alice

I am so bored.

Like the new layout? I do…I love it and I’m sure Chris is going to love it as well. I think it fits my mood. LOL (Long story, don’t ask…okay?)

I’m going to Chris’s tomorrow. 🙂 I can’t wait. I love him! I love spending time with him and yes, I know I shouldn’t get married to him right away…and I have some many ‘what ifs’ running around in my head right now about it. But Chris and I love each other yet…I don’t know….he would freak if he knew I was having ‘what ifs’…I think I will talk to him about it tomorrow night. Since we always end up talking for about 4 hours before we fall a sleep together.

Anyway…I guess I better go. Later Tater