life

I have a bad feeling about this

I decided for one reason or another to open Yahoo message a few moments ago and I guess the reason I did was because I was hoping Christina would be on it so I could talk to her but still the same I open it up and find that a user by the name nascarred08 has added me to their buddy list. Ummm . . . not many people have my yahoo messenger name and most people know to use my AIM name because I am most likely to be on there but this isn’t the point. My point is being that the only person I know that uses the words nascar, red, the number 8 and so on are Ronda and Tony (Chris’s mom and step-dad). I really don’t want to start anything with either one of them. I have left her, Tony and Chris alone. I have only talk to Chris once since the shit :poo: hit the fan and I am not about to start more. I want everything to end with her and Tony. I want the past to be the past. 🙁

I hate the fact that I still have nightmares about Tony. The fact that I wake up almost screaming, in tears and holding on to Keith for dear life. I HATE THAT!! It isn’t fair to me to be scared of a man that I no long have to be around. I just hate even thinking about it.

I better get off that subject before I start to cry and I don’t want to do that. 😐 But anyway, I am just sitting here. I have a few projects to work on. I need to finish working on Chet’s side project on his site, I need to finish editing a few pages for Christina and I have to add an archives page to WP and finish making Jim (our tattoo guy) some business cards. I made me some today for Element Solutions. They look very nice. I was very proud of myself. *shows off big ego* :cute: Oh, yeah another thing I need to add to WP is the spell checker. I suck at spelling which most people that read my blog have noticed. LOL I can’t help it. 😳 I have always sucked at it.

Before I forget, thank you Amanda for willing to help me. I might be emailing you in a few days once I get my book in and start reading it. I would love to work with you. You are the PHP Queen. 😀 You rock my socks anyway. *hugs*

I guess I better go. I have a lot to do before bed. And Keith and I have a lot to do tomorrow. Go to H and R Block to get our taxes fixed, pick up his check, put it in the bank, go pay house phone bill and the electric bill and then after all that we have to go to Wal-Mart to get food and light bulbs. 💡 We have a very busy day a head of us and I don’t even fill like getting out :yuck: because it’s all rainy and stuff. Damn weather.

PS: Before I totally forget thank you for all the nice comments on my tattoo. I’m glad everyone likes it. 😀

YAY! I feel pretty good!

For one I can’t believe I got WP finally working the way I want it. Everyone was right. It just took time. And I turned my whole site over to PHP. OMG! 😀 I am so happy about that.

On to real life stuff. Keith and I got more ink the other night. YAY! We traded some video games we didn’t want anymore for ink. LOL I got my ankle worked on some more. Now I have a sun with Keith’s birthday in a bar code on the other side. It looks so good.

I have been very busy today and last night. I got all our paper work in order. We had a ton of bills and stuff like that just laying around every where. I labeled folders and put them in order. I also, picked up all the clothes. Put two baskets away and washed another basket full. I cleaned out Chewie’s cage (our teddy bear hammie) and tonight or tomorrow it is Eggs turn for the cleaning.

Well, I am off for now. I will try to update either tomorrow or the next.

Busy as a bee

I have been so busy. I haven’t had time to update anything. Over the weekend our car breaks down. It is still in the shop. STUPID CAR!! We are driving Judy (Keith’s mom) car which we are happy for. We should get the car back tomorrow. *crosses fingers* We aren’t totally sure what’s wrong with it. 👿 Cars are evil! You know, that right?

I have been working on a new online project. 😀 You will know soon enough. I am almost done with it. It has its on domain. :heart: I really think this project is going to take off. I hope so. I will give the URL as soon as I am done proof reading it and typing everything up. I just have a couple more pages to get done. YAY!

Also, come to find out our taxes was done wrong by H and R block. They told Keith he didn’t have to clam me on the taxes because we didn’t get married until Sept and before that I lived with my mom and dad for over the 6 month limit. Well H and R block told Keith WRONG!! He was suppose. So, now Keith and I was piss scared that we was going to have to pay out more money so we didn’t get in trouble with the IRS. Keith called the IRS 1-800 number and we got it all in order. We should be getting more money back. :money: = 🙂 You know?

Oh by the way, Jennifer, Wal-Mart does give a discount, 10%. Which I would love. I am going to go talk to them in the next week or so. I have been lazy about that. I know I need to but I just keep putting it off.

Well, I have more work to do but I just wanted to update before it got some long that no one came back. I love my visitors.

Yawn

Well, at the moment it’s the butt crack of dawn and I am awake still. :dead: I am trying to stay awake until Keith goes to bed tonight. Which would make me staying up for WAY to long but now when I sleep during the day; I don’t feel like I have slept at all when I wake up. Which means, I’m to use to my husband beside me and I am trying to get where I can go to bed with him. This 4am to 4pm is working out great for him but is killing me. I love my husband and I want to be able to sleep next to him at least once this week. I miss that. :hearts:

We haven’t been a part one night since we moved in together. It kills us to be a part this (12 hours) long. But he is doing it so we can have a home to live in, cellphones, gas, etc. You know the list of bills; the normal.

I am still planing on getting a job. But I haven’t decided where yet. I wouldn’t mind working at Food Lion or Wal-Mart but I really don’t want to work with fast food. I don’t mind cooking for people but people are so rude in fast food. :grumpy: People in those places most of the time want to blame everyone on the new person and then you look worse. I’m not saying that every fast food place is like that but the ones I worked in was. I hated that. I know most people liked working at Wal-Mart. But I don’t know. It could be like that there too. :looksleft: Oh well, I guess. I mean, I won’t know until I start there.

But on to the good stuff, site stuff. 😀 I have edited the great smilies that can be found at Beccary.Com to match this layout. I have taken down all skins but one. I just update a few things here and there. Nothing to big yet. I want to do so much more but I still haven’t decided yet.

I skinned Chet’s site today. I got everything done but changing a few pages over and then I’m done. YAY! It was a lot of hard work but it looks very good! I feel so proud. :balloons:

Generations problem

You know what makes a lot of sense to me, this quote:

“Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need. We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War’s a spiritual war… our Great Depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won’t. And we’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off.” —Fight Club, Tyler Durden

I think that’s really our generations problem. We are a group of pissed off young people who have no outlet. They scream out to be individuals yet it has all been done. You have your want-to-be hippies and want-to-be punks and want-to-be every things and no one has sat down to think about what they are doing. I don’t know if this makes any sense to anyone else. I don’t know where I was really going with this but I just thought I would share it, none the less.

I guess you can really tell I’m tired. :yawn: I have been busy today. I picked up the living room, did dishes and washed some clothes. I want to go to bed but I can’t. I have to start cooking Keith some breakfast around 1:30 am. Which sucks because I really want sleep. :dead: I feel all dead!

I worked on Chet’s site some tonight (I’m adding themes to it), I started to make Christina a new layout; but only got to the image not the coding, and I started to make me some new layouts. I started the images but not the coding yet. I have been doing that for the past couple of days. I just want to make digital art. Well, as close as I can get. I think that’s the reason I made a ton of wallpapers. I made like 10 or 20. I didn’t post all of them but close to it. I made mostly 1024×768 wallpapers because that’s what I use on my desktop.