random moments

This bugs me.

I went to order a catalog from Adam and Eve and I couldn’t because of where I live. I will put what the web site posted when I tried to received my free catalog.

The address you have entered as your Catalog Mailing Address is located in a restricted area.

At this time, we are unable to send any XXX books, magazines or videos to KENTUCKY. Your statewide community has been considered sexually conservative and our lawyers have advised us against it. Keep in mind that this is not a matter of legislation and that both the billing and shipping addresses must be in a non-conservative area.

WTF? That bothers me. I mean, I am 19 years old (20 in Nov.) I can walk in to any porn shop I want and buy anything I want but to get a catalog in my own home to look at. NO! That’s out of the question. :grr: That pisses me off. It makes no since. Does that mean I can’t order from there as well. If so, fine. I won’t. Damn place.

You did what, to who, for how many cookies?

Guess who now has a fanlisting for her? PICK ME!! Rainbow Fanlisting Are you fan? If so, you should go join. Make me feel loved. *giggles* 😀

We went to Keith’s parents house Saturday night and stayed the night and got up and went to my parents house for a grill out Sunday. We had fun. We just hung out and talked with both sides of the family.

Nothing much else to report. Just tired. :yawn: I went to bed with Keith last night around 8pm or so. I got up around 1:45am to cook him breakfast and fix his lunch for him. I plan on staying up for a few hours. I need to call about some apartments and houses and I need to pick up the living room some and finish washing all the clothes. :yuck:

We plan on moving with in the next month or so. Hints the reason why I am going to call about some apartments and houses today. We looked in the paper and found a few that might work. We are looking for a 3 bedroom because his brother is going to be moving in with us and we need more space anyway. Nathan’s graduation is May 27 I believe. Which means, I have been out of school for one year now. WOW! It doesn’t seem that long.

For once the weather was very nice this weekend. :sun: I so enjoyed having the sun shine down and being about to sit in the sun and feel good. :looksleft: I love pretty weather. I think everyone does.

Thank you for every ones suggests about what I should do about my period. I am going to call the Health Department today and try to get appointment for this week. I am going to ask to be put on the shot I think. I am going to talk to them about all birth control but I want something that I don’t have to worry about and is easy. I hate thinking about getting a shot often but if that means I will feel better and my heath will improve that I am all about it.

I have been off birth control since October and I think it is finally taken its toll on me. I have been getting heavier and heavier and I am starting to get weaker and weaker. I think getting on birth control again will really help that. I need to be on it anyway but didn’t start taking it back after I had the miscarriage.

Well, being female sucks

TMI: If you read it will have to much info.

I started my period today. It hurt so bad. I almost cried a couple times. It hasn’t hurt this bad in a long time. I am thinking about going back on the pill for a while or go get on the shot. I heard while on the shot you don’t have a period. That would be nice. But on the pill I know when I would have my period.

I guess I better go. Keith is home and I would like to spend time with him.

Unbelievable

I haven’t really updated in a few days. I post little blog entries but not really posted a real blog entry. I have so many thoughts running in my head. Which is odd. I don’t know why I have had some many different thoughts about so many different things. Now I am making no sense. :question:

Last night I watched a show on A&E about a girl that was addicted to meth. It really got to me. I just sat and cried almost always through it. Most people don’t know because I don’t talk about it much but my brother, Raymond was addicted to meth for almost 4 years until he was put in jail. He lost his two kids over it and his wife left him. His two girls live with my mother and father and his wife ran off with another man.

The girls family in the TV :tv: show just kept having to deal with the same shit day after day. I really felt for her family. I love my brother very much but someone can only handle so much. I remember a lot of nights no being able to sleep worrying if this was the night my family would get a call saying my brother was dead because of an overdose.

Which is really scary since he overdosed in March 2001. He almost died. He doesn’t realize how close to death he was and the scary part is that he didn’t even realize that he was that close. That his heart rate was going from 54 bpm to 175 bpm. He had so many drugs in his system it was unbelievable. It still scares me to this day to think about it.

I hope my brother sees the 💡 light some day but who knows. At this moment in time he is in jail. At least I know he is getting 3 meals a day and has a bed to sleep in. It makes me hurt to think about the nights he use to run around and not care about anything it seems. 🙁 I have to stop talking about this now. I don’t want to cry tonight.

A couple people asked in my last blog entry if mice eat their babies. About 5% do but 95% of the time they won’t. Not unless their is something wrong with the babies or someone picks them up to early. Not like hamsters. About 45% of hamsters will eat their babies sometimes more then that. Yet another reason I love having mice. But I do love my hammies as well. I love all of my pets; Mario and Princess (mice), Chewie (teddy bear hamster), Egg (dwarf hamster) and Cookie (dog, she lives with my mother and father). WOW! A lot of pets but I still take care of each and everyone with love. I am a dork. LOL 😳