His deceit

People amaze me. They really do. I think about my life. My idea of where I want to be. Who I want to be. What I am going to do when I grow up. You know what I have no clue. I am okay with this.

This scares me to death. That I am okay with this. I am 23 going on 24. Aren’t I suppose to know what I want. At least an idea. I know the people I want in my life. But that is about it. Crazy thought.

I am not sure what to make about this thought. This fear. I know what I need to get done in life. I need to get Greg out of my life for good. That means I need to get everything together to get the divorce. Then I can drop him out of my life forever. I don’t regret much but he is one thing I do. I wish I had never met him. He pulled me in with his lies. His deceit.

I’m not going to lie. I got sucked in. I fell for it all. I can’t believe how stupid. How dumb I am. Wait, I can. It happens.

I’m not sure where this entry is going just wanted to write. I need to finish painting my nails. I need another coat. Then dishes. Then I am heading back over to Cody’s I think. I miss him.