Busy, busy and more busy

I have had a long week it feels like. It started Thursday. I got up at 6am. I help my mom put her stock truck up. Over a $2000 truck. For Camp Joy and her job. She does a program called “Summer feeding” For any children to the age of 18, you can get two free meals. Breakfast and lunch. It really is a great program. Some days she will fix over 800 meals. Including breakfast and lunch. Crazy-ness. I have been help her a couple days a week. I enjoy working with my mom. I don’t get any money but that is okay.

Then Thursday night I kept the girls until Friday afternoon around 5pm. That was a handful. Then Friday night I drank a little. Had a long night with Cody. A little spat. It all ended okay. We hung out last night. And a little while today.

I was so busy last night. I washed all my bed stuff. Three loads of clothes. Vacuuming. Dishes. Then I had to make the bed back after I washed everything. Just a long few days.

Today has been my lazy day. I have been napping. Picking up a little. Mr. Kitty and I have been just chilling. 🙂

Aside

The eye of the beholder

It’s all about perception. How we perceive things. How we perceive the situation. How we look at it from our point of view.

We all see things one way or another. How we look at something is why we do what we do in the end. Why we decide to move or pick our friends, the job we have. We all have reasons. In the end it is why we did what we did.

I can’t explain some of my actions over the years. All I can say is it was how I perceived the situation at that time. I did what I felt was right at that time. I wish I had more of an answer but I don’t. This upsets me to a point but all in all. I can’t take it back. I can try to make up for it. I can try to hope that when I am dead and gone and I am watching this movie called “Life”. I can laugh and realize their was a point to it all.

That my love didn’t die in vane. My thoughts and feelings was for no reason. That my ideas was there and meaningful. I hope in the end how I perceived things was everything that I had hoped for. That I couldn’t have asked for more.

New laptop

I am sitting here waiting for time to be closer to go pick up Cody. I feel lost, I left my phone at his house and I didn’t feel like going back to get it after I was already back at my house before I realized it was gone. Silly me. 🙁

I haven’t been doing much today. I watched a couple shows of Cold Case. Then did dishes. I’m putting off doing the floors until tomorrow. Everything else is done. Dishes, picked up bedroom and living room.

I got a new laptop last night. I have been having tons of fun with it. Just installing programs and what not. I think I’m spending the night with Cody tonight so I can play around with it more there.

I also, banned the lovely IPs coming from an area in KY. I thought it would be funny. 🙂 It makes me smile a little. But anyway, it is almost time to leave and I need to get my stuff together.

Hey, Stalker Cunts :)

Hello all, on May 2nd 2009 I had a nice blog entry titled “Hey, Stalker Cunt 🙂” from Marie (Greg’s new girlfriend, after a month new fiance). Whatever, can’t judge for that one. I married the stupid SOB but different story, different blog entry. But on with this story, this blog entry.

After I read the entry there was a big “twitter war”. Which was totally silly. On both parts. I got called “Stalker” because I read the entry wrote for me. After the “twitter war” was over that night. I hadn’t said anything else. I hadn’t wrote anything else. I haven’t even visited anything to do with them. I could careless really.

Then I check my web site stats. Funny thing with a domain, it logs all IPs going in and that stays on the site. Well, wouldn’t you know I have two IPs for the locations of Greg and Marie are at. Silly me for being the “stalker”. Let me tell you, they are like herpes. They just don’t go away. You think your not going to have an out break, then wham, there they are. Which the only reason I can guess they would be checking my site is for my twitter updates since my twitter is protected. Do so for this reason. To have proof I’m not “stalking” anyone. I’ve been very good.

And far as anything else goes. I’m not fighting about this either. Have no reason too. Just wanted to get it out in the open. I find it totally funny. She says it’s because I can’t let go of Greg. 😆 I don’t want him. If I wanted him, I wouldn’t it be smart to be trying to sweet talk him; not fight him. I’m not doing anything.

Good night all. I need to be heading to bed. I’m going on a field trip with Meadow tomorrow. . .well, today. 🙂

His deceit

People amaze me. They really do. I think about my life. My idea of where I want to be. Who I want to be. What I am going to do when I grow up. You know what I have no clue. I am okay with this.

This scares me to death. That I am okay with this. I am 23 going on 24. Aren’t I suppose to know what I want. At least an idea. I know the people I want in my life. But that is about it. Crazy thought.

I am not sure what to make about this thought. This fear. I know what I need to get done in life. I need to get Greg out of my life for good. That means I need to get everything together to get the divorce. Then I can drop him out of my life forever. I don’t regret much but he is one thing I do. I wish I had never met him. He pulled me in with his lies. His deceit.

I’m not going to lie. I got sucked in. I fell for it all. I can’t believe how stupid. How dumb I am. Wait, I can. It happens.

I’m not sure where this entry is going just wanted to write. I need to finish painting my nails. I need another coat. Then dishes. Then I am heading back over to Cody’s I think. I miss him.