3Feb   LOST

is amazing. Simple as that.

One month and fourteen days until I see Cody.

I still don’t have water. Maybe tomorrow. That is all.


22Jan   A new chapter

I finally have water. I was without for 9 days but living so close to family really helped out. Dad was amazing on helping me get it fixed and running. I had to wait so long not because of my father but because the weather wouldn’t warm up. But it has finally! πŸ˜€

Raymond has been gone for a week tomorrow. He hasn’t called or anything. Very odd. You think you would want to know why you are kicked out but he didn’t care. He kept bumming off other people without missing a beat. He is great like that. Don’t get me wrong. I love my brother but I can only take so much. He had been living with me almost a year and still no a temp to find a job. Jobs don’t get up and fall into your lap. Promise. You do have to go looking.. .dang.

Far as that. Thank you all for all the wonderful comments on the past couple of entries. I like to hear from army wives and people that have dealt with long distance relationships before. It helps me feel less alone.

I hate being without Cody by my side. He has been such a big part of my life for so long and to think he is having to deal with something so hard like basic training a lone hurts me, scares me. We always deal with our problems together. Facing them head on. Him having to do this a lone is so depressing. But I know in the back of his mind he is worrying about me right now dealing with all the bills, taking care of the house like pipes freezing and our heater messing up and things like that. I know scares him too. I guess this is just another chapter in our lives that we have to face a lone but together if that makes any sense at all. I know most of these feelings are normal and theses fears are normal. I keep telling myself that.

It’s crazy but I have these little things that make me feel so close to him. Like, I check the weather where he is or every night no matter what I always say “good night, sweet dreams. I love you.” or I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night feeling for him. Or I almost expect him to be at the house waiting for me when I get off work. Which is kind of depressing when he isn’t but I know once these 27 weeks (10 weeks at basic & 17 weeks at AIT) are over we are going to be so close and finally plan our wedding and honeymoon.

WOW, when I read over that and look at 27 weeks. . .I cry a little because that is FOREVER! January has been going by pretty quick. I hope the rest of the months will too.

I need to get off the internet and stop watching TV. I have a love letter to write to my baby. Those brighten our day. I can’t wait till Sunday. I will cross fingers get another phone call. To hear his voice. To hear how much he loves me. . .makes my week.


15Jan   No bail out for me

I am so upset about my freaking water pipes. They have been frozen since Friday the 8th. It makes me so mad because all Raymond had to do is leave the water dripping. Like that is so freaking hard. Now it has warmed up enough to turn the water back on at the meter to see if it has unfroze. Well, it had. Bad news, it was the main pipe going from the water meter to the house. So, it is broken now.

I have to work tomorrow but dad said he would come over and help try to fix it. The deal is that Raymond has to be there and well, he fails. He left today and still hasn’t come back home. He just text and stated that he would be here in the morning. If he isn’t, I have news for him. If he bails on me and doesn’t come home to help me fix this. I am kicking him out. It was his fault for turning the water off. I just don’t know what I am going to do besides try to get under the house and fix it. The joys of being a home owner. I am glad in most cases because it is paid for and I don’t worry for rent but then this happens and I can’t just call some one and be like, “hey. Come fix this.” Like when I was renting.
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5Jan   Second day

Yesterday I drop Cody off to get on a bus to leave for basic training. OMG! I didn’t think I would miss him so much. I’m not crying every minute. I don’t think I have cried but once or twice. It was late. I was lonely. You know how it is. πŸ™

I am sure as the weeks go on, it will be easier. I am just so use to him being there laying next to me. Mr. Kitty stayed in the bedroom with me last night. Made it a little easier.

I am just catching up on laundry and picking up my room a little bit today since I start work tomorrow. I haven’t worked in almost a year. I know the first couple of days are going to be hard to get use to since I am on days. Which is a plus, really. Just not use to getting up at 7am. I am sure once I do that a couple days I will feel great. Seeing day light and all. πŸ™‚

Well, the first load of laundry is done and now I need to start the other load. Yay for house cleaning.


3Jan   I have become comfortably numb

Okay. Here I am another blog. Another move. This is a new year. Here is to a great start. Hopefully. I am releasing this site today, well more like tonight. I haven’t finished moving over all the entries and comments but I do have all of Decembers of 2009. I think all the comments for that month is updated but not sure yet. Going back over that once I have finished this entry.

I have moved back over from Chyrp to WordPress. A sad day. I still love Chyrp and if I have another project that Chyrp can handle I will use it but at this time. It did have to many bugs and not enough modes to really make me stay. I couldn’t use the scripts I wanted to nor could I really edit them enough to work with out trying to have two different layouts made. Crazy. But I am happy with WordPress at the moment. Will see how long that will last.

This morning Branda and Micki came over to see Cody for a bit just to kind of say their goodbyes. πŸ™ Which was good for Cody. His little brothers spent two nights with us. He has spent a lot of time with them. Tonight is Cody’s last night at the house. Tomorrow at 11am he leaves for basic and AIT. Which will be around 6 months he will be gone. I am super sad about it. Nothing I can do but wait. I love him so much. This will just make us stronger. It feels like the last month went by super fast and now the next 6 months will drag along because well, that is how it works. When you want time to hurry up, it goes even slower.

Then Wednesday I start my first day of work. I am so nervous about starting work again. I am sure I will do just fine but regardless I have to go. lol πŸ˜€ I think I will enjoy working again. Plus, it is day shift. Which will be amazing. Every job I have had in the past 5 years has been either mostly all nights or all nights.

I need to go return comments and go post comments on a few blogs. Trying to get my new URL out there. Time to go be busy. Plus, I am downloading some older movies so Cody and I can watch them and cuddle a bit before tomorrow. πŸ™