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Overwhelmed

I have been aiming to blog forever. I have no real reason why I haven’t done so sooner. I have had time, I have had subjects I wanted to talk about, and so forth and so on but truly, I haven’t because I couldn’t muster the energy to do it.

The last few months have been very trying physically, mentally, and emotionally. I have started my depression medications back which has helped a little bit but a lot of it really is just pushing myself forward. Trying not to step backwards in this battle.

I twittered a while back saying “Depression is such a hard fight. I feel like I am fighting a battle I will never win.” and I feel that way 99% most of the time because of the fact as soon as I think it is getting better, it kicks me down again.

I feel so overwhelmed due to the fact, I am a full time college student now (by the way, I am very happy and proud of), a home owner (which means no land lord to call if something goes wrong), working part-time (sometimes closer to full time) and trying to have a social life. . .well, kind of a social life. The closest to one as I want to get at this moment in time. That’s a lot on my plate right now for one single person. I don’t have someone to share my stress with or help me with the things I need to get done or to even share anything with. I’m doing it alone.

I have been very lucky that my father and one of his friends has been doing the major things that need to be done outside to my home. Like building me a new front deck and they fixed my back one. We have the whole outside cleaned up. And random fact: I totally found a stop sign under my trailer. How awesome!?! 😀

Anyway, I do have more I want to write but I am lost for words at the moment. I am working on a new layout finally. I will be getting my new laptop either tonight or tomorrow. I am selling my 15.6″ laptop and getting a netbook since I have a desktop too.

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My BIG to do list

I know everyone is tired of hearing me talk about how happy I am because I am sick of reading it myself, and it’s my blog. So, I thought I would write about things that has to get done or things that need to be done before Cody gets home. Here is to my big to do list. This includes online and offline.

Online stuff isn’t as important to get done but I would like for them to be done before Cody gets home since that means I can spend more time with him and not behind a computer. XD I guess I will break the list down from offline (Inside and outside) and online (projects and just wants).

This list is more for me to know what needs to be done and not really for you guys but you’re more than welcome to keep track. OMG, I am so sorry I am this boring. Here goes:

To Do List:

  • Offline:
    • Inside:
      • Organize office desk (check!)
      • Organize books on both book shelves
      • Organize bedroom closet
      • Organize all photos on my desktop/laptop to folders to make it easier to upload them (check!)
    • Outside:
      • Clean up where the building sits (check!)
      • Clean up back porch (check!) and under back porch
      • Clean up back yard (check!)
      • Clean up top of yard
      • Clean up under trailer
  • Online:
    • Finish making WT a new style (test run)
    • Upload new gallery script to Vibrantly to make it more of a gallery and less like a photoblog.
    • Add some new features to here (check!)
    • Change Crazy Talks layout
    • Do something with Muffin Queen, maybe a photoblog

This list totally makes me sound like I have the worst outside living area ever, but really it’s small things that has been put off for to long. It all has to be done in sections which makes it sound a lot bigger but maybe I can get some help from Cody’s little brothers.