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New layout once again…

“I’m not normally a religious man, but if you’re up there, save me, Superman!” — Homer (The Simpsons)

Well, my ankle and toe still hurt very badly. I can’t feel my toe at all, I can’t move it. I think that I cut something really bad in it. ='( I’m scared that I have. Mom said if it isn’t any better but in the morning, I am going to the doctor. I guess that’s a plus. Well, I don’t know!?! lmao

I seen my brother for the first time in 3 months or more. I was happy to see him, glad that he was still alive. After everything that he has been doing and been through. I was just happy to see him.

NEW layout!! I hope you like. I can’t help but to change layouts. I wanted something new…something that went with my mood. Janeane Garofalo has been one of my favorite actress for sometime now. I love and respect her work very much. I think that she is all around a great person. And also Kitten looks like her. : ) lmao Leave a comment telling me what you think? To simple? To much? What?

Anyway….
I bought a new DVD today, The Craft and I bought the VHS of The Crow. I wanted it on DVD too but mom said when we find it on DVD we will buy it too and just have two copies. I was like ‘okay, cool beans’.

I don’t know if Vamp will be able to keep her blog after all of this crap going on. I really hope she can. Her and I haven’t been friends very long but I still love her to death. If you don’t know Vamp and I know each other in real life. =) She has become one of my closest friends.

Also, I got a letter from Chris last week sometime and I finally got around to writing him back tonight. I wrote like a three page letter talking about everything because I’m like that with him (he is my best friend, dude). I hope mom will mail it off tomorrow before or after work sometime.

Maybe, I might go to bed now…..I don’t have to watch Caroline and Meadow tomorrow and I don’t have anything else to do unless I go to the doctor, so I should be able to sleep in!!

I got hurt again…

“I once saw a clip from some midget pron..it was VERY VERY frightening…” –Christina 06.07.03

I hurt so bad right now. I fell down my stairs and cut my ankle and toe really bad. We didn’t go to the ER but we should have. I cut it deep too. I didn’t cry…that’s a plus, right? I’m always the one who is clam during that kind of thing.

Before that happen I was out on a boat with my dad, mom, Vamp, my dad’s boss and the two little girls (ages 5 & 3). Anyway, my dad’s boss paid me $10 to jump in the water and get wet. Well, I did. So, I got $10 to just be stupid. It was fun….the water wasn’t that cold. It could have been worse. You know?

Anyway, Vamp spent last night and the night before with me. And oh, her mom just came to pick her up. She found out about what happen between Vamp and I. She didn’t say anything to my mom and dad and she find out by her blog. So, now I don’t know if she will still be able to post on there or not. I hope she will be able too. Her mother said for her not to ask for me to come over and for her not to ask to come over here.

I’m off. In pain and wondering what Vamp is going to do.

Projects & I HATE camping

“You just have to gay up everything, don’t you?” –Unknown (some guy on ABC)

I made my dad take me home from the “vacation”. I hated it. Camping should be renamed “crapping”. lol Camping would be fun with anyone else’s family but mine. Trust me!! I hate my family sometimes.

Kitten keeps calling me off and on. I’m home alone and I’m trying to get her to drive to my house to see me. It sounds like so much fun. I haven’t seen her since school let out.

[edit] I got Kitten to try to drive to my house and she got caught. Her mom called my house and everything…..OMG…I can’t believe this. She said there was no way of her getting caught. GREAT!! I’m so worried. I hope she is okay.[/edit]

OMG, I am finally in the last year of school. OMG!! Its great. And after high school. I get to move out and go off to college. I can’t wait.

I want to thank everyone who left a comment or emailed me. =) Also, NOTE TO HOSTEES: If you don’t update your site(blog) at least 1st a week, you WILL be delete. I’m tried of visiting my wonderful hostees and seeing that the have updated but once since they have moved in. I understand that you have all lives. Hell, so do I but its really stupid to ask to be hosted and “try” to run a site if you don’t have time for it. I know that sometimes, I can’t update but I try. =) So, please try to update….that’s one of the rules to be hosted here. Don’t follow the rules you are deleted.

Anyway, on a little note. I took over the HBO Fan listing and I opened the Pink Floyd The Wall fan listing. I am running 4 projects and my site. I think that I’m doing good.

If you like to join listings, please go join F-S listings. I am looking for lots of members. I only have but a hand full right now. So, please go join. =)

Well, I’m going to go clean some more. Make my mom happy when she gets back.

Vacation and new layout

“I followed the purple hippos all away here….” –Unknown

I am going on vacation with my family this week so I won’t be able to update until this weekend. We are doing the whole family camping thing. What fun?

NEW layout. I hope you like…..It fits my mood nicely. Well, I think so.

Well, I could never be self-centered. Its not me. I use to sit in my room for hours crying, hoping my friends would notice me….notice how I had faded from them. Yet they never said a word, never noticed. I wished they had but they didn’t. But now as I have grown as a person. I have realized now that I love being me….no, matter how sad it gets. I still have some good moments. I know, I know…..I bitch about it all the time but hey, thats me. LOL

I have to finish packing tonight and then we leave tomorrow. I get to work on my “book” and read. I will be glad too. I have need to work on that stuff, for a while. I don’t know how I am going to live with out my computer a whole week. Mom said we might stop by the house long enough for me to check my mail. =) Which is a good thing and I get to go shopping too.

Nikki came over yesterday and we had a ball. It was fun. I love hanging out with that girl. 🙂 Later

I’m off. I want lots of comments and LOTS of emails.

10 points 2 me

“Killing I understood. Relationships confused me.” –The Killing Dance, Laurell K. Hamilton

I hoped everything would get better but sometimes hopes are nothing and dreams are just dreams. I know that that’s sad to say but I am starting to believe that. Kitten doesn’t understand and I want her to so bad. I do.

I have did things that I’m not happy about and never will be but that gives her NO right to say mean things to me. I understand that she is hurt. Goddess, believe me but its still hurts me to have her say and do those mean things. What am I suppose to do, take it? In the end I do, I take everything she throws at me. EVERYTHING! No matter how big or small. I guess I should, I mean take the shit. She has been taking mine for ever it seems. I have put her in hell more then a number of counts. And she still loves me, I think that I should at least give her the respect she has given me. I want to but I don’t know how. I mean I try to, but in the end I always seem to fuck everything up. I hate that about my self.

I am trying so hard right now to make everyone happy. It doesn’t matter about me, just everyone else. I’m like that most of the time. Its always everyone else over me. I have been like that as long as I can remember.

You know what I have noticed. I have been getting longer and longer on this blog. Each entry just keeps growing. I know you people don’t read all of it. I wouldn’t…well, really I do because I write it but not the point.

“there she goes,there she goes again…”