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Birthdays

Today is my mom’s birthday. I am making her a cake right now. Then I am going to take it up to her house to eat it. Nom, nom, nom!! XD

Then a week from today is Caroline’s birthday. Crazy-ness. I bring Caroline and her friend to my house Friday. I can not believe she is going to 12 this year. I feels like last week she was born. Which makes me feel old, which is even more weird because I’m not even 25 yet.

Next year I am going to cry. She will be a teenager. I am not looking forward to that one. Matter of fact, I wish it wouldn’t come for another few years but this is life. It happens, whether we want it to or not.

It is almost time for me to get my cakes out of the oven. 😀 I love cooking.

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A new chapter

I finally have water. I was without for 9 days but living so close to family really helped out. Dad was amazing on helping me get it fixed and running. I had to wait so long not because of my father but because the weather wouldn’t warm up. But it has finally! 😀

Raymond has been gone for a week tomorrow. He hasn’t called or anything. Very odd. You think you would want to know why you are kicked out but he didn’t care. He kept bumming off other people without missing a beat. He is great like that. Don’t get me wrong. I love my brother but I can only take so much. He had been living with me almost a year and still no a temp to find a job. Jobs don’t get up and fall into your lap. Promise. You do have to go looking.. .dang.

Far as that. Thank you all for all the wonderful comments on the past couple of entries. I like to hear from army wives and people that have dealt with long distance relationships before. It helps me feel less alone.

I hate being without Cody by my side. He has been such a big part of my life for so long and to think he is having to deal with something so hard like basic training a lone hurts me, scares me. We always deal with our problems together. Facing them head on. Him having to do this a lone is so depressing. But I know in the back of his mind he is worrying about me right now dealing with all the bills, taking care of the house like pipes freezing and our heater messing up and things like that. I know scares him too. I guess this is just another chapter in our lives that we have to face a lone but together if that makes any sense at all. I know most of these feelings are normal and theses fears are normal. I keep telling myself that.

It’s crazy but I have these little things that make me feel so close to him. Like, I check the weather where he is or every night no matter what I always say “good night, sweet dreams. I love you.” or I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night feeling for him. Or I almost expect him to be at the house waiting for me when I get off work. Which is kind of depressing when he isn’t but I know once these 27 weeks (10 weeks at basic & 17 weeks at AIT) are over we are going to be so close and finally plan our wedding and honeymoon.

WOW, when I read over that and look at 27 weeks. . .I cry a little because that is FOREVER! January has been going by pretty quick. I hope the rest of the months will too.

I need to get off the internet and stop watching TV. I have a love letter to write to my baby. Those brighten our day. I can’t wait till Sunday. I will cross fingers get another phone call. To hear his voice. To hear how much he loves me. . .makes my week.

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No bail out for me

I am so upset about my freaking water pipes. They have been frozen since Friday the 8th. It makes me so mad because all Raymond had to do is leave the water dripping. Like that is so freaking hard. Now it has warmed up enough to turn the water back on at the meter to see if it has unfroze. Well, it had. Bad news, it was the main pipe going from the water meter to the house. So, it is broken now.

I have to work tomorrow but dad said he would come over and help try to fix it. The deal is that Raymond has to be there and well, he fails. He left today and still hasn’t come back home. He just text and stated that he would be here in the morning. If he isn’t, I have news for him. If he bails on me and doesn’t come home to help me fix this. I am kicking him out. It was his fault for turning the water off. I just don’t know what I am going to do besides try to get under the house and fix it. The joys of being a home owner. I am glad in most cases because it is paid for and I don’t worry for rent but then this happens and I can’t just call some one and be like, “hey. Come fix this.” Like when I was renting.
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Second day

Yesterday I drop Cody off to get on a bus to leave for basic training. OMG! I didn’t think I would miss him so much. I’m not crying every minute. I don’t think I have cried but once or twice. It was late. I was lonely. You know how it is. 🙁

I am sure as the weeks go on, it will be easier. I am just so use to him being there laying next to me. Mr. Kitty stayed in the bedroom with me last night. Made it a little easier.

I am just catching up on laundry and picking up my room a little bit today since I start work tomorrow. I haven’t worked in almost a year. I know the first couple of days are going to be hard to get use to since I am on days. Which is a plus, really. Just not use to getting up at 7am. I am sure once I do that a couple days I will feel great. Seeing day light and all. 🙂

Well, the first load of laundry is done and now I need to start the other load. Yay for house cleaning.

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Cloudy. . .

I am so tired. I haven’t felt good all day. I think I am coming down with a cold. NOOO! I think I am going to fix me a bit to eat and see if that makes me feel any better. Waiting on Cody and Dustan to get here from school. When they get home, I’m heading to my moms to watch Cloudy with a chance of meatballs with my family. I got it burned on DVD. 🙂 OMG I can’t wait. Going to be great my the kids.

I need to finish laundry and making the bed. That is about it. Everything else is done. Which is awesome on my part.