Even in my darkness night he stands by my side.
I love you Kyle Thomas without you I don’t think I could ever be half the person you have made me into. I truly am a better person for having you in my life!
Me & Kyle at a wedding!
Even in
love
Infertility sucks!
Sometimes I feel like my infertility makes me a terrible person because I hate looking at social media and seeing everyone pregnant or just had a baby and I just want to de-friend each and everyone of them. I truly want to be happy but I have so much hate because they each one of them has the only thing I truly want. The one thing that I want to complete my family is the one thing I can’t get.
I am going under treatment for my infertility and I still haven’t got pregnant yet. I have only taken the Clomid only one cycle but my doctors told me not to take it this month since Kyle hasn’t had a chance to go to the urologist (Kyle has a low sperm count and we don’t know why since all his blood work came back normal). His appointment is at the end of this month, once he does that we find out his problem we go from there. I am so sick and tired of dealing with it out.
Why can’t it just happen? Why can’t I be the one? Why can’t I just be happy for everyone? I am so tired.
Gatlinburg, TN 2012
Great Smoky Mountains Family Vacation 2012
Kyle, me and the girls took a vacation to Gatlinburg, TN. The Great Smoky Mountains! We had a blast. Spent to much money but that is what vacation is about. The girls had some much fun, we all did. Kyle and I truly do love our family.
Circle #photoadayApril
Circle
Circle: Photo A Day Challenge (A picture of our wedding rings. . .the circle that can’t be broken. :love: )
Life is happening right before my eyes
OMG, this is the second time I am typing out this entry due to my server just stop responding, then throwing a “Database Error” then when I click back it just has nothing shown and WordPress hasn’t “auto saved”. Almost every night around this time this happens. I am starting to get upset by this just because I am trying to blog more but every time I do I lose it. Then it makes me mad so I don’t want to re do it. Blah. So, I guess I will just start typing everything in Evernote, that way I know it’s saved. I can copy and paste with the best of them.
/end rant
On to what the entry was suppose to be about. I feel like life has been passing me by the last couple of months but this is no surprise since I got older time doesn’t slow down at all. I remember when I was a kid summer lasted forever! I couldn’t wait for it to be over. Now, I wake up a new month as started. I am still dating checks for 2011. This fixing to be May what is wrong with me.
We have still been looking at houses and we haven’t found anything we like really. Everything that is in our price range isn’t really worth our time. To much work needs to be done to it to move in. Don’t get me wrong, I like the idea of a “fixer-upper” but black mold isn’t on my top 10 things to live with. Just saying. :poke:
Cammie and I have been talking and trying to get some ideas together for her next visit coming this July. I think we have a couple places I know we want to do for sure. Zoo. FTW! 😀 Also, the more I talk to Kyle about it, the more he wants to come with us as well. 😀 We are pretty awesome like that.
I also renewed my Flickr pro account and uploaded a butt ton of photos there.
Well, I need to catch a shower before I head to bed. I have to be up early in the morning so I can go with my grandma to the doctor. Then we are going to go shopping then who knows what else.