Something that makes you sad
Something that makes you sad: Photo A Day Challenge (That my Possum has been disappered now for two months and I still expect him to show up. I keep expecting him to come running at me. I miss that dog so much.)
Why move back when you can keep running from everything you left? Just saying. I have so much angry right now for this person. No respect for herself or others.
It takes a bigger person to face their problems / issues then it does to run from them. #imjustsaying
/end rant two tonight
Acceptance of what has happened is the first step to overcoming the consequences of any misfortune.
It’s hard for me to read some peoples post about how much they love someone when I know the things they did to that person.
You don’t love someone if you cheat on them when they aren’t around. You might love the idea of them, you might even think you care about them but if you did, you wouldn’t do the things you have done. It’s not love. . .it’s they fact you have someone right where you want them. It’s using someone’s kindness in your favor like you always have. I have no respect for people that do this to people that has done nothing but do everything for you.
And don’t blame it on “drinking”. I was “drunk”! Bullshit! You know what you’re doing. Drinking isn’t a get out of cheating card!! Drinking doesn’t gives you an excuse! You just have poor judgement and need a reason to justify it!
/end rant
I use to be so awesome at this blogging thing and then I started working full time, school full time and a husband. WTF??
I miss the internet. I miss my web sites. . .most of all I miss designing for no reason. I really want to just sit down and code a site from start to finish just because. . . 🙁 This makes me a sad hippo!
Also, it was my grandmother’s 73rd birthday today. I took her out for dinner and we went shopping all day. I really enjoy those days. 🙂 My grandmother is an awesome women. And without her I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I am thankful everyday I have another day with her.
PS: Kyle got me a iPod touch 4th gen (Piggy is it’s name). I do love it! I like it way better than my iPhone, why because I can use it as an iPod not my life line.
I am a terrible blogger. I have been wanting to update, but it seems life always gets in the way. I just started another semester of school, still working and we had been trying to find a place to move but at last the house loan didn’t come through like we needed, so we are stuck here for a few more months but I made myself this promise. We will be in a house by next year at this time.
I have had so much I wanted to blog about, like ex boyfriend Cody texting me for the first time in forever or the fact that like I stated we was looking at houses to buy, or school starting. . .just really over all boring stuff.
Far as Cody texting me. He started the first text off with “Since you are still friends with my whole family we should be too” and then preceded to tell me that he “always promised to tell me if he ever got deployed“. Well, it’s a little late to start keeping promises now, don’t you think asshole!?! I’m just stating facts. You also promised to “always love me”, to “always be there for me” or and lets not forget “promised to marry me”. Did you keep any of those promises? Hell no!! Ahhh, what an asshole!!!! That’s all I got. What kind of nerve do you have to text me after all this time? I texted a few little things back but after I did I felt dirty and used and almost heartbroken all over again. . .why? I’m not sure or maybe I felt more sorry for him or whatever the case maybe. He tired texting me a week or so later but it was only one message stating “Well, Jenn I finally got my first tattoo.” I didn’t even bother responding. I’m not even going to again. I don’t like the feelings he brings up inside of me when he contacts me. I feel so much angry still and just plan sorry for him. I have decided when and I say when / if, but he has been the one to contact me every time since I decided I was no longer going to contact him back when me and Kyle got together, but like I said it isn’t if. . .it’s when he contacts me again I am going to send him this:
Error: Your message could not be sent. The Ex you’re trying to reach has moved on. Error number: 3 years wasted!
I think it will get the point across. He made comments when we first broke up if he got deployed could he still write me like he did in basic. I told him then why not write your whore you left me for. I mean, if she was worth losing / leaving me over, write her. I’m not going to waste my time on you. He seemed hurt by this statement at the time but it’s how I feel. I’m not hiding any feelings from him now. I have no reason too. Oh god he won’t talk to me again. Thank god!! I couldn’t get so lucky.
Anyway, on a better note I got another client site to do. I have two clients right now but one hasn’t got back with me since they paid. Weird, and the other one I just started. At least they are paying jobs. I love the fact I get to work on different kinds of projects that I normally wouldn’t do for myself. You know?