Caroline

Thank you

Thank you everyone for your sweet and caring comments. I still feel very different inside and out. I look at how my body was changing and how it went back to normal and think “WOW! I had something living inside of me. I had a living being growing inside of me.” I feel just blessed knowing that I can get pregnant, that I had that moment of happiness growing inside. I know that sounds odd to say after what happen but I have to think on the bright side, right?

Early Friday morning around 4 am or so before Keith and I went to bed. I just cried. I cried for a long time. I had to get it out. I felt a little better after I got it out not back to normal but a little better.

I put the baby blanket away. I can’t stand even looking at it, let alone working on it. I told Keith when I get pregnant again I would finish it then but not now. It’s way to soon. I almost come to tears when ever I look at baby stuff or past by a little baby. I know I should get over this but I can’t yet. It is going to take time and I know that, Keith knows that. It’s just so hard. 😥

WOW! It is getting late. I made Caroline’s birthday cake earlier today. She wanted a purple cake with blue icing on it for her 7th birthday. So, I made it for her. She turned 7 on the 16th of this month. Mom just decided to have her party tomorrow today. Easier to have it on Sunday then a week night, you know?

Well, I think I am going to head off to bed. I am getting tired :yawn: and I have to get to mom’s house early to help set stuff up for the party.

Moody Mother Earth

I’m glad I’m not the only one that finds it wrong about the Scott Peterson fan site. But anyway, new subject I suppose.

Thank you for every ones loving comments about Lily. She will be missed. 😥 Caroline gets Cheddar (baby) this weekend. Keith and I are going to fix up a little care package for her. We are going to include all of her favorite foods/snacks and a little house thing that she has been sleeping in and so on. I think Caroline is going to be a good little caregiver. I am very proud of her. She has ADHD and since she started school it has gotten worse. But since they put her on some new medication she has done so good. 😀 We (my family, Keith and I) are so proud. Mom thinks having a small pet like Cheddar with help. I think so too.

Speaking of Cheddar, he is doing very well. He is growing up so fast. I keep thinking “WOW! How does something this small when born, grow up so fast?” It’s so unreal.

I swear the weather here is being very moody. LOL I promise! Last night it was snowing a little before Keith got home from work. Then when we was going to bed last night it was raining. :rain: WTF? What is going on? I think the mother earth is on her rag. *giggles* I crack myself up.

Last night I wrote a tutorial about changing a site over from HTML to XHTML 1.0 Transitional. Tonight I believe I am going to add a tutorial about CSS and some basic HTML stuff. I also added a downloads page. It only has three things on it but I am going to go through all my scripts I find useful and put them on there. I promise to give full credit to who ever wrote them. I just will upload a version I edited to make valid in XHTML. I love the scripts I use and I thought that maybe some other people might want them.

Crazy downloading & Chris

“God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh.” –Voltaire

And a thanks to Sheri….even if she doesn’t have a site….she still can be plugged…right!?!

First, I will answer Sheri. Honey, I haven’t been getting your emails, because if I had I would SO be emailing you back…girl, your the greatest so, why wouldn’t I write back!?!

Now, about the Faded Stars Designs….I don’t know…it would kind of be nice to have a network kind of thing here. I mean, I do have the F-S listing that I run here. I don’t know…..I will think about it. =)

I went shopping yesterday with Chris….it was so FUNNY. We left around 1 something pm and got back around 6:30 or so. He didn’t leave until 10:00pm.

I got a new fish when I went shopping yesterday. He/she is red and blue, very pretty. Herbert is it’s name……Chris said it was….so, I was like ‘okay, then….that’s it’s name’.

I got to fix his hair when we got back….it was great. I love being around him….I guess that’s why he is my best friend.

Nikki was suppose to come over today but she didn’t get too. =( I wanted her too. But she couldn’t. I will talk to her tonight on yahoo about it. I have a feeling she wanted to but couldn’t because of personal reasons.

I have to watch the girls tomorrow. What fun? RIGHT!!!

I have been downloading like crazy since last night. I have been downloading PSP brushes, fonts, and mp3s.

=) I love the net!! NOTE: If you have linked me and I didn’t know it….tell me….I will link you back

New layout once again…

“I’m not normally a religious man, but if you’re up there, save me, Superman!” — Homer (The Simpsons)

Well, my ankle and toe still hurt very badly. I can’t feel my toe at all, I can’t move it. I think that I cut something really bad in it. ='( I’m scared that I have. Mom said if it isn’t any better but in the morning, I am going to the doctor. I guess that’s a plus. Well, I don’t know!?! lmao

I seen my brother for the first time in 3 months or more. I was happy to see him, glad that he was still alive. After everything that he has been doing and been through. I was just happy to see him.

NEW layout!! I hope you like. I can’t help but to change layouts. I wanted something new…something that went with my mood. Janeane Garofalo has been one of my favorite actress for sometime now. I love and respect her work very much. I think that she is all around a great person. And also Kitten looks like her. : ) lmao Leave a comment telling me what you think? To simple? To much? What?

Anyway….
I bought a new DVD today, The Craft and I bought the VHS of The Crow. I wanted it on DVD too but mom said when we find it on DVD we will buy it too and just have two copies. I was like ‘okay, cool beans’.

I don’t know if Vamp will be able to keep her blog after all of this crap going on. I really hope she can. Her and I haven’t been friends very long but I still love her to death. If you don’t know Vamp and I know each other in real life. =) She has become one of my closest friends.

Also, I got a letter from Chris last week sometime and I finally got around to writing him back tonight. I wrote like a three page letter talking about everything because I’m like that with him (he is my best friend, dude). I hope mom will mail it off tomorrow before or after work sometime.

Maybe, I might go to bed now…..I don’t have to watch Caroline and Meadow tomorrow and I don’t have anything else to do unless I go to the doctor, so I should be able to sleep in!!

I got hurt again…

“I once saw a clip from some midget pron..it was VERY VERY frightening…” –Christina 06.07.03

I hurt so bad right now. I fell down my stairs and cut my ankle and toe really bad. We didn’t go to the ER but we should have. I cut it deep too. I didn’t cry…that’s a plus, right? I’m always the one who is clam during that kind of thing.

Before that happen I was out on a boat with my dad, mom, Vamp, my dad’s boss and the two little girls (ages 5 & 3). Anyway, my dad’s boss paid me $10 to jump in the water and get wet. Well, I did. So, I got $10 to just be stupid. It was fun….the water wasn’t that cold. It could have been worse. You know?

Anyway, Vamp spent last night and the night before with me. And oh, her mom just came to pick her up. She found out about what happen between Vamp and I. She didn’t say anything to my mom and dad and she find out by her blog. So, now I don’t know if she will still be able to post on there or not. I hope she will be able too. Her mother said for her not to ask for me to come over and for her not to ask to come over here.

I’m off. In pain and wondering what Vamp is going to do.